to be, or not to be...
i have been browsing phoenix job postings. just for fun. or so i keep telling myself...
i wonder, could i really do it? put my money where my mouth is? for over two years i've been saying "i want to live in phoenix... i want to live in phoenix..." maybe this is my chance. i'm single and unemployed. if i'm ever going to do it, now is the time. right??
but always immediately following were the words "...but i'm too close to my family. i don't know if i could live that far away from them." i will always feel that way, but maybe i'm using that as a cop-out. maybe it's time for miss independent to really stretch her wings. take off for a year or two. then come back home. i know i couldn't stay away forever.
why is it so hard to distinguish my voice from God's? is he the one nudging me forward? or am ignoring his "no"? is he leading me there, or am i running away?
i wonder, could i really do it? put my money where my mouth is? for over two years i've been saying "i want to live in phoenix... i want to live in phoenix..." maybe this is my chance. i'm single and unemployed. if i'm ever going to do it, now is the time. right??
but always immediately following were the words "...but i'm too close to my family. i don't know if i could live that far away from them." i will always feel that way, but maybe i'm using that as a cop-out. maybe it's time for miss independent to really stretch her wings. take off for a year or two. then come back home. i know i couldn't stay away forever.
why is it so hard to distinguish my voice from God's? is he the one nudging me forward? or am ignoring his "no"? is he leading me there, or am i running away?