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It's been a pretty rough week. I've been fighting some sort of sickness and trying to get everything done cuz no one else is going to do anything but go figure... the past two days though has been really rough. The kids have been beyond terrible, and Catie is finding everyway she can to stab me as deep as she can (and doing a pretty good job of it.) And its just really frustrating and painful. I dont get why she says stuff like that and why she wants to just cut me as deep as she can. Why would anyone want to make anyone feel like that or really wish things like that person would just die and go to hell so theyd never have to see them again ect. It's really getting to me... And more and more the other kids and mom & dad are saying stuff too and it just really hurts. And right now a lot of friends are starting to do the same thing....... I dont get it. Instead of saying stuff like that why wont sombody just fricken tell me what it is that im doing so I can change it instead of just hating my guts and trying to make me feel like.... crap. I'm really getting sick of it. From now on I'm not going to bug anybody anymore.... try and be invisible.. if anyone wants me around well then they come and get me.. if not well good. I cant piss them off.