Again...
Today ended up being just another one of those days when my mom gets mad and slams the phone down on me for some of the stupidest reasons ever. Instead of making my life easier through divorce and my parents moving away from each other my life is gradually falling apart. The further I move away from each parent the more pressure they try to exert on me to ensure that I come back for one various reason or another. It has gotten to the point where my parents have totally forgotten about the person that they were once tring to see, replaced by such disdain for each other they just look to gain something over the other one. Unfortunately, this thing they stand to gain over the other happens to be a human life, one with feelings, wants, and needs of its own. No longer can I make up my own mind; with each day that passes I continue to lose whatever bit of hold I had over my life, and where I wanted it to go. I cannot deal with this much longer, the façade where I am content and happy can only replace what I feel part of the time. In all reality I thought I was finally done with all of this, I started to relax, and I started to get my life back on track. Apparently that just wasn't the way it's supposed to be. I haven't felt so hopeless and abandoned for so long now. Fortunately, there is at least one person up here who I might be able to voice this to. Other than that I am so out of contact with anyone that I really care about...