Why should you want any other when you're a world within a world?
One of my friends commented on how I'm completely out of the picture lately.
I barely go out anymore. I barely answer my phone anymore. When I'm not working or running errands I'm at home. My only communication with anyone is at the gym or at work. I'm just coming home and watching TV or going online. I don't know why. I'm not even sure if I want to do anything for New Year's. I'm like an old man who doesn't want to do anything but stay home and be alone. How pathetic. What the fuck happened to me??!!
Yesterday, I was talking to a friend of mine during my break from work who had just broken up with her boyfriend and wants to meet someone new and she was asking me how to meet guys. It's weird to me that someone would be ready to jump back into a relationship after a serious one just ended.. I've actually have a lot of girlfriends who do that.. but it got me thinking about what happened to my ex-girlfriend and me.
It's been 10 months since we broke up and I haven't had the urge to be with anyone since. For some reason, my thoughts are still dwelling on the past. I still regret what happened and what I did to her, not necessarily because I thought I had a future with her; I'm just sorry for hurting her. I hate the fact that she doesn't want to be friends and that she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I can't really say I blame her, but I hope that she's satisfied with how much it's been killing me ever since.
However, like with everything, I walked away a better person. I'm happy that I've changed.. it just still makes me upset that it cost me a friend in the process.
Thanks for the friendster testimonial Carly! lol It was amusing. Thank you. Yours is on the way...
I barely go out anymore. I barely answer my phone anymore. When I'm not working or running errands I'm at home. My only communication with anyone is at the gym or at work. I'm just coming home and watching TV or going online. I don't know why. I'm not even sure if I want to do anything for New Year's. I'm like an old man who doesn't want to do anything but stay home and be alone. How pathetic. What the fuck happened to me??!!
Yesterday, I was talking to a friend of mine during my break from work who had just broken up with her boyfriend and wants to meet someone new and she was asking me how to meet guys. It's weird to me that someone would be ready to jump back into a relationship after a serious one just ended.. I've actually have a lot of girlfriends who do that.. but it got me thinking about what happened to my ex-girlfriend and me.
It's been 10 months since we broke up and I haven't had the urge to be with anyone since. For some reason, my thoughts are still dwelling on the past. I still regret what happened and what I did to her, not necessarily because I thought I had a future with her; I'm just sorry for hurting her. I hate the fact that she doesn't want to be friends and that she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I can't really say I blame her, but I hope that she's satisfied with how much it's been killing me ever since.
However, like with everything, I walked away a better person. I'm happy that I've changed.. it just still makes me upset that it cost me a friend in the process.
Thanks for the friendster testimonial Carly! lol It was amusing. Thank you. Yours is on the way...