Movin' on out
I think my parent took the news better than I expected which most people might consider badly. I am selfish, inconsiderate, good for nothing who only thinks of herself. How are they going to pay the mortage that I had tried to tell her(my mother) they wouldnt be able to afford now? My well played on guilt has me considering staying through the summer. But this would mean passing up a perfect large room in a roomy and friendly apartment. I do not know if I will have the fortunate to find another place just has nice for the same price and the areas I desire. Details: Koreatown, 3 room apartment kitchen dinnerroom and living room, my potenial room is large and nicely furished with walk in closet, right next to the 10 fwy (direct shot to Cal Poly *saves tons on gas*) and 30 minutes by street to my internship in WLA. All for $400 per month includes cable utilities.
This house my family is buying is way too much responsiblity for me. I cant do the 600 - 800 a month, sharing a room with my sister who could drive anyone insane. I would be subject to my parents bitching and inconsiderate ways toward my education. There would be a great amount of time commitment with the finance commitment as my parents act they can make no decide without torturing me with it first. What do I mean by torturing me? Drop everything to solve or answer problem or question just to throw my suggestions/thoughts aside *repeat* until I am thoroughly annoyed. My parents dont cover any of my expenses. So I would paying quite a bit to stay there but it would be up to me to keep the rest of my life together. I thought about leaving school and working full-tme but I know that would push me to wanting to slit my wrist. I have worked hard to get into Cal Poly Pomona and stay there. I have things I wish to achieve there obviously but my parents get this notion that I am sit on gold and have no idea how they came up with the idea.
Now I think my family can put this off with out but a few boats have to be rocked. My nephew practically live with us. My sister gets money for child care but passes very little on to my mother. She usually gives a small portion to my ever bitching father which wastes the money over. My sister the ultimate bitch and admits she is self absorbed. She does nothing for no one but they are afraid to anger and ask for the child care money. The are a few other avenues of income that for lame reasons arent being tapped or being waste over. But I cant just tell them to harness these resourses without them accuse me of being a selfish bitch.
I love my family. You think this would be obvious to them for even considering to go through this pain and misery. I just want to be done all ready. I have work tomorrow and I cant sleep. I am working until 6pm so I am going to be miserable.
I have no idea what I should do.
This house my family is buying is way too much responsiblity for me. I cant do the 600 - 800 a month, sharing a room with my sister who could drive anyone insane. I would be subject to my parents bitching and inconsiderate ways toward my education. There would be a great amount of time commitment with the finance commitment as my parents act they can make no decide without torturing me with it first. What do I mean by torturing me? Drop everything to solve or answer problem or question just to throw my suggestions/thoughts aside *repeat* until I am thoroughly annoyed. My parents dont cover any of my expenses. So I would paying quite a bit to stay there but it would be up to me to keep the rest of my life together. I thought about leaving school and working full-tme but I know that would push me to wanting to slit my wrist. I have worked hard to get into Cal Poly Pomona and stay there. I have things I wish to achieve there obviously but my parents get this notion that I am sit on gold and have no idea how they came up with the idea.
Now I think my family can put this off with out but a few boats have to be rocked. My nephew practically live with us. My sister gets money for child care but passes very little on to my mother. She usually gives a small portion to my ever bitching father which wastes the money over. My sister the ultimate bitch and admits she is self absorbed. She does nothing for no one but they are afraid to anger and ask for the child care money. The are a few other avenues of income that for lame reasons arent being tapped or being waste over. But I cant just tell them to harness these resourses without them accuse me of being a selfish bitch.
I love my family. You think this would be obvious to them for even considering to go through this pain and misery. I just want to be done all ready. I have work tomorrow and I cant sleep. I am working until 6pm so I am going to be miserable.
I have no idea what I should do.