holy forever!
It's been forever since I've written in this ol' thing.
I've tried to stay up to date on a blogger--and a tumblr--but i don't think i'm cool enough for one of those. Plus I really don't want everyone reading my stuff.
Don't get me wrong--I love love love looking at people's tumblr's and i'd have lots to "reblog" but the whole purpose of me writing was always, and is always to get stuff off my mind. for me. So I can't seem to leave my livejournal, it's been through hell with me. and. i sorta love to read it sometimes.
So anyways---update on my life:
for future joey brandt, yeahh 10 years from now joey: this is for you...
I'm still kicking strong at EMU. Love my gd program and love the folks i get to nerdily talk about design standards with. What's successful, what's not? What could you do to take your design one step further? What's your style?
I love being able to look at 20 some works on the pin-up wall and know who's created it w/o even asking. It's really great to see everyone grow as a designer--into their own personal style. And it's great to know we all just "get it" and we get eachother, and everyones super nice :) I wish it could stay this easy forever. I hope when I graduate (hopefully Fall 2010) I will be able to land a job with equally amazing people. But life's always harder when there's money involved huh? Can people really be nice in the business world? Can you truly really be friends with a co-worker who wants that same promotion? hmm. we shall see..we shall see.
I was laid off in June, I had a wonderful summer because of it. Canoing, boating, vacations, camping, loving every inch of dorans body... But the joblessness (made up word)....it's really starting to take a toll on me now. Be careful what you wish for could have never held such weight as it does now. I get sooo bored--granted I get to spend a lot of quality time on projects, and school assignments, but I GET BOOREEDDD!! Sometimes I get so bored that I get depressed, and don't want to leave my house! It's sad, really. Then I think what would I do if i do leave my house? Shop? Eat? Or get super completely drunk and waste away the next day. I feel if I had a job my life would be more meaningful, at least to me. Being paid by the government doesn't make one feel needed.
I know now that to fill the void I need to practice my hobbies. Just listing them on facebook doesn't constitute as doing them. Although--I do sometimes!! For example our snowboarding trip I planned for everyone a couple of weekends ago was nothing short of amazing! BEAUTIFUL really. A whole group of friends--and pure beautiful nature. So i guess it's not like I don't try. I guess it's during the week when I get the most bored--when everyone else is working and I'm stalking facebook at home :P
The only other time I'm truly happy is when I'm with him. And I know that is dangerous! Dangerous. dangerous. If I am already at the point where I can't live w/o him and we've only been dating 1.5 years... then i'm really setting myself up for a sloppy, sad, breakup... if it happens.
Although I'd like to think it wont--I'd like to think we're perfect. I can pretend can't i? Oooo I love him so. And sometimes to help me fall asleep I imagine our wedding. and our children. I kno it sounds crazy--but it lulls me. It does. He's beautiful.
Besides the being jobless and sometimes depressed-I can't complain. Alex and tony are great, mom and dad are great, my friends are great, and school is great. Maybe i'm just being greedy? Like I want too much? I have a lot to be thankful for. But that's my story as of now. soo that's what i got for you joey. future joe. goodnight!! :)
I've tried to stay up to date on a blogger--and a tumblr--but i don't think i'm cool enough for one of those. Plus I really don't want everyone reading my stuff.
Don't get me wrong--I love love love looking at people's tumblr's and i'd have lots to "reblog" but the whole purpose of me writing was always, and is always to get stuff off my mind. for me. So I can't seem to leave my livejournal, it's been through hell with me. and. i sorta love to read it sometimes.
So anyways---update on my life:
for future joey brandt, yeahh 10 years from now joey: this is for you...
I'm still kicking strong at EMU. Love my gd program and love the folks i get to nerdily talk about design standards with. What's successful, what's not? What could you do to take your design one step further? What's your style?
I love being able to look at 20 some works on the pin-up wall and know who's created it w/o even asking. It's really great to see everyone grow as a designer--into their own personal style. And it's great to know we all just "get it" and we get eachother, and everyones super nice :) I wish it could stay this easy forever. I hope when I graduate (hopefully Fall 2010) I will be able to land a job with equally amazing people. But life's always harder when there's money involved huh? Can people really be nice in the business world? Can you truly really be friends with a co-worker who wants that same promotion? hmm. we shall see..we shall see.
I was laid off in June, I had a wonderful summer because of it. Canoing, boating, vacations, camping, loving every inch of dorans body... But the joblessness (made up word)....it's really starting to take a toll on me now. Be careful what you wish for could have never held such weight as it does now. I get sooo bored--granted I get to spend a lot of quality time on projects, and school assignments, but I GET BOOREEDDD!! Sometimes I get so bored that I get depressed, and don't want to leave my house! It's sad, really. Then I think what would I do if i do leave my house? Shop? Eat? Or get super completely drunk and waste away the next day. I feel if I had a job my life would be more meaningful, at least to me. Being paid by the government doesn't make one feel needed.
I know now that to fill the void I need to practice my hobbies. Just listing them on facebook doesn't constitute as doing them. Although--I do sometimes!! For example our snowboarding trip I planned for everyone a couple of weekends ago was nothing short of amazing! BEAUTIFUL really. A whole group of friends--and pure beautiful nature. So i guess it's not like I don't try. I guess it's during the week when I get the most bored--when everyone else is working and I'm stalking facebook at home :P
The only other time I'm truly happy is when I'm with him. And I know that is dangerous! Dangerous. dangerous. If I am already at the point where I can't live w/o him and we've only been dating 1.5 years... then i'm really setting myself up for a sloppy, sad, breakup... if it happens.
Although I'd like to think it wont--I'd like to think we're perfect. I can pretend can't i? Oooo I love him so. And sometimes to help me fall asleep I imagine our wedding. and our children. I kno it sounds crazy--but it lulls me. It does. He's beautiful.
Besides the being jobless and sometimes depressed-I can't complain. Alex and tony are great, mom and dad are great, my friends are great, and school is great. Maybe i'm just being greedy? Like I want too much? I have a lot to be thankful for. But that's my story as of now. soo that's what i got for you joey. future joe. goodnight!! :)