Aug 29, 2005 16:29
So here's and update for ya...
Men suck, they really do. I have this Man (i use this term loosely as i'm not sure he is a human being)in my life he has been in my life for the past 3 years. He vaires in importance in my life from boyfriend to bestfriend to scumbag that uses me. Well right now he is the scum bag that uses me. I don't know i probably have no right to be upset but this boy has been living with me and my parents rent free for the last year year and half. Well praise god he's finally moving out on wedensday, he's moving to wisconson to go live with mommy. Yay him! But he's the kicker i have to drive him all the way to Tyler Texas ( i live just a little south of Corpus Christi Texas this means this trip is going to be an 11 hour drive). Even this i'm not mad (even though i'm renting the car and paying for gas while said scum bag does NOTHING) because it gives me an oppertunity to take my best friend on a much needed vaction for a few days and do some sight seeing and stuff since she's never been to Dallas. Here's what makes me mad.
So today this morning he's on MY COMPUTER, USING MY INTERNET and he's reading an email from mommy and she is talking about meeting is new girlfriend and the club on Base where they live. I know i shouldn't have been spying but, WTF girlfriend. Asshole, now we are basicly over romantically i will always have a soft spot for him as he was the boy who was pretty much my first everything, but he doesn't have to balls to tell me that he's met somebody else. I don't know i'm not being rational as i'm talking to a (what i hope is not a scum-bag) new boy BUT SCUM BAG KNOWS ABOUT HIM.
I guess i'm just being silly, but i feel so used. I really do, this idiot has done nothing but sap me of my life, my money and my love (which he probably never really deserved in the first place) for the past three years. I'm really hoping i don't miss him, and i don't feel the urge to call him once he's gone (though he's taking my fucking calculus book and will have to mail back to me) I really hope this time i can be free of whatever insane hold he has on me.
Please god just give me strength....
Sorry for the rant ya'll
~Laura~