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Ok, so i'm thinking about what i want to do next year considering i am done BCC after this spring. Originally, Alex Jill and I have been planning on getting a place around here in jersey (Jill being alex's g/f) since we are all looking into schools around the area. I really liked the idea. I've had this big plan on either going to Rutgers Camden or Rowan, living with Alex and Jill, Coaching Wrestling, and just having a good time. So i thought i had everything pretty well figured out, right? Wellllllll, i made a hugeeeeee mistake.
Steph and i were sitting around and she wanted to watch some of my old home movies from when i was a kid. We watched a couple and then i had to take her home. Well i was looking through the tapes as i was putting them away and just happened to put in one of my old wrestling tapes from when i was about 4 years old (when i first started)....man ol man did that hit me hard. So today, Steph asked me to put in my tape from senior year (wrestling), i watched about 3 minutes of it and it hit me....I've decided that i want to consider looking back at Delaware Valley College. They are one of the best D-3 Wrestling teams out there...ranked 5th in the nation i believe? maybe even higher. I talked to the coach Last year when i was leaving cabrini because that was my original plan, to go there and wrestle, and the coach wanted me, and then cabrini didnt send my transcripts in time and wound up screwing me over, hence the decision to return and go to BCC. So, now i have a problem. I am comfortable being here and i've had these plans on staying around here for some time now. But, I need to be on the mat again.
I hate when people look at me and think i am a conceded person just because i am quiet. Sure i can be cocky at times, but that doesnt mean i'm a conceded person, so dont take what i'm about to say the wrong way. Last year while i was Reffing a match out in Rancocas Valley, i was in between matches and a guy came up to me out of the stands. I didnt recognize him at first, but when he revealed his name i knew right away he was the father of one of the kids i have been wrestling since i was little. We always had this little Rivalry between us and usually went back and forth with each other, having very good matches. I was never close with his son and truthfully we never really got along, so i was kind of suprised his dad was coming up to me. He asked me how i was doing and where i was going to school. I explained to him how i went to Cabrini but then found i wasnt as comfortable out there and decided to come home and attend BCC until i found where i wanted to be. At first he just kind of looked at me, then asked "well why arent you wrestling". Well considering BCC doesnt have wrestling, i told him no where but i was helping out with the High School Team. He said something to me i will never forget.
He said "Wrestling isn't like any other sport in the world. Its a sport where there is no team out there to help you. You are out there for you, and that is where you belong. You were a great wrestler and i enjoyed watching you grow and competing against Ryan (his son). If you choose not to wrestle anymore and go another way, I wish you the best of luck with whatever you do, but i am positive of one thing, You will never get away from wrestling. It is too much a part of you and anyone else who steps onto this mat to just let go. You can hate the kids guts you may be facing, but when you get off the mat, it doesnt matter, Wrestlers are all part of the same, very unique Family. You were too good to just stop and i hope that you never let it go."
He then just walked away. I've thought about what he has said many times and finally I see now that he is right. Wrestling is too big a part of my life. Yes it may sound strange to some of you. Some of you may be sitting there saying "oh god, here we go, john's talking about wrestling again"...but until you have experienced what i have, you wont understand. I've grown up on a mat. To walk away and stop, knowing that i could still have 2 more years of my life to devote to this sport that I love, that has molded me into who i am today, just kills me.
So there is my problem....I need comments. I dont care if you barely ever talk to me, i'd still like to hear from you.