good day/bad day/good day/bad day
I can't decide.... for 10 minutes it'll be a good day and then something will set me off... and then I'll think it's a bad day... and then it's all good... and then it's all bad... Gah!
I went shopping today... I was looking for something new and something nice to wear on Thursday when I play at the recital. I found khakis and a blue shirt - not at all what I was looking for, but it'll work. I haven't worn khakis in three years because I haven't been able to find a pair that fits... but I have a nice GAP pair now... yay!
I was hoping to meet up with a friend of mine today, but he wasn't feeling well. He's a really cool guy and I like him a lot, but sometimes I get the impression that I annoy him. It really kills me that he's sick because I really wanted to see him. I'm also worried that my feelings are one sided and that if I tell him how I feel, he won't return those feelings... you know how it goes... Shouldn't I be used to getting hurt by now, though? Why does this guy make a difference? Why about him makes it so much harder for me to say something? I haven't felt this strongly for someone in a long time....
Gah... I'm going to go practice... maybe that'll get him off my mind...doubtful, but worth a try.