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I had a huge feelings jam about Yosuke and Souji over on Tumblr and I feel like bringing it over here for archive purposes. This was all in a couple of posts with Katseeter, who is a person after my own heart.
I have trouble dealing with pining!Yosuke. Not like…the concept of it, because let’s all be honest here, I can totally see how it would play out in game and junk. Yosuke, my poor bb.
I mean emotionally. Like wow. I just want this kid to be happy.
I am a wimp and I enjoy happy endings for every character.
But I really, really like pining Souji. BRAIN, WHAT ARE YOU DOING????
I don’t understand myself.
Katseeter: ughghgh it’s such a great idea, I’m really in love with it u.u
JUST…..he’d be so casual about. I feel like he’d realize what’s going on in his own head and just…try to continue on normally. He’d still make the boxed lunches and yeah, he’d invite Yosuke more than the others BUT. And I can just see him smiling little fond smiles but thinking it could never work because Yosuke is totes hetero (HAHAHHAHA SOUJI NO UR RONG PLS HAVE YOU SEEN THIS KID NEXT TO YOU?)
I think I just like the idea of Souji pining because I’ve always felt that Souji would be more likely to act on it eventually. A LONG TIME AWAY, EVENTUALLY, BUT EVENTUALLY.
Whereas, Yosuke would constantly second guess any decision about telling Souji and he would just be sad forever i am sry yosuke.
Katseeter: smiling sad little smiles when he thinks yosuke can’t see but trying to act completely normal when he turns around…MY HEART CAN’T TAKE THIS.
I AM ALSO OKAY WITH DOUBLE PINING???? Souji will smile his secret smiles and school his face when Yosuke can see him. BUT BUT BUT. Yosuke is a really perceptive kid and he realizes that Souji changes his expressions when Yosuke looks at him.
And he starts a spiral of self doubt. IS HE BORED WITH ME. OH NO. IS HE JUST TOLERATING ME? IS HE STARTING TO HATE ME? WHY IS HE TREATING ME DIFFERENTLY NOW? OH NO HE LOATHES ME HE ONLY HANGS OUT WITH ME AS A JOKE. etc etc etc
and this makes everything worse because yeah Yosuke had a crush on Souji but now that he thinks Souji is starting to hate him he just….disengages. he wants to save what’s left of his friendship if he can and if that means backing off as much as possible well…..okay :’(
Katseeter: I’M GONNA DIE THIS IS TOO PERFECT DOUBLE PINING OH MY GOD IT WOULD TOTALLY HAPPEN
IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER it all works out in the end like this:
Everything between them starts to spiral out because they’re working off each other’s cues (which have just become really strained).
Yosuke decides to just bite the bullet and try to talk to Souji, so he asks Souji to meet him (probably by the Samegawa River or something). Anyway Souji arrives there at night and Yosuke
just says
I’m sorry I’m not a good friend. I didn’t mean to annoy you so much and I know I can be a handful. Thanks for trying to stick around but…if you don’t want to be friends with me anymore, I understand (and oh man this is killing him on the inside because he thought they would be bf5ever because yeah. But he needs to rip this bandaid off because thinking that Souji might actually hate him is the worst.) etc etc he is basically projecting all of his self-doubts and hates into this conversation with Souji.
And this can end a couple of ways.
Souji can deny everything and try to get back to status quo and they can go back to secret pining and try to work past these feelings by themselves until they can convince themselves that it would never work so they should just be friends (OH LORD NO, I WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO TAKE THIS ONE)
Souji can confess. He can let Yosuke know everything he’s been feeling. He can let him know that he’s started to like Yosuke more than he really should. And that he knows Yosuke would be uncomfortable if he had told him before and that the last thing Souji would ever want is for Yosuke to be uncomfortable with him. But if not saying these things would make Yosuke leave him anyways, he’ll tell him everything. AND THEN THEY KISS. (more like Yosuke stares in realization and disbelief, snaps back to himself, walks over awkwardly and just….hugs him tight while he comes to term with the fact that it’s the exact opposite of all his fears and he’s not losing his best friend, but can actually gain something more wow
Katseeter: if the first option happened I would actually die, RIP me, killed by bitter OTP feelings, but the second option, yes, hugs, just hugs as they come to terms with this new development in their relationship
So many bitter OTP feelins oh my god. This is a pairing that I feel really strongly for, but I’ve never really realized the extent. I just want everything to work out for them uughgugggh.
Thank you for sitting through all of my word and feeling vomit. I think I’m going to…draw out my feelings for them soon. OH MAN.
I have trouble dealing with pining!Yosuke. Not like…the concept of it, because let’s all be honest here, I can totally see how it would play out in game and junk. Yosuke, my poor bb.
I mean emotionally. Like wow. I just want this kid to be happy.
I am a wimp and I enjoy happy endings for every character.
But I really, really like pining Souji. BRAIN, WHAT ARE YOU DOING????
I don’t understand myself.
Katseeter: ughghgh it’s such a great idea, I’m really in love with it u.u
JUST…..he’d be so casual about. I feel like he’d realize what’s going on in his own head and just…try to continue on normally. He’d still make the boxed lunches and yeah, he’d invite Yosuke more than the others BUT. And I can just see him smiling little fond smiles but thinking it could never work because Yosuke is totes hetero (HAHAHHAHA SOUJI NO UR RONG PLS HAVE YOU SEEN THIS KID NEXT TO YOU?)
I think I just like the idea of Souji pining because I’ve always felt that Souji would be more likely to act on it eventually. A LONG TIME AWAY, EVENTUALLY, BUT EVENTUALLY.
Whereas, Yosuke would constantly second guess any decision about telling Souji and he would just be sad forever i am sry yosuke.
Katseeter: smiling sad little smiles when he thinks yosuke can’t see but trying to act completely normal when he turns around…MY HEART CAN’T TAKE THIS.
I AM ALSO OKAY WITH DOUBLE PINING???? Souji will smile his secret smiles and school his face when Yosuke can see him. BUT BUT BUT. Yosuke is a really perceptive kid and he realizes that Souji changes his expressions when Yosuke looks at him.
And he starts a spiral of self doubt. IS HE BORED WITH ME. OH NO. IS HE JUST TOLERATING ME? IS HE STARTING TO HATE ME? WHY IS HE TREATING ME DIFFERENTLY NOW? OH NO HE LOATHES ME HE ONLY HANGS OUT WITH ME AS A JOKE. etc etc etc
and this makes everything worse because yeah Yosuke had a crush on Souji but now that he thinks Souji is starting to hate him he just….disengages. he wants to save what’s left of his friendship if he can and if that means backing off as much as possible well…..okay :’(
Katseeter: I’M GONNA DIE THIS IS TOO PERFECT DOUBLE PINING OH MY GOD IT WOULD TOTALLY HAPPEN
IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER it all works out in the end like this:
Everything between them starts to spiral out because they’re working off each other’s cues (which have just become really strained).
Yosuke decides to just bite the bullet and try to talk to Souji, so he asks Souji to meet him (probably by the Samegawa River or something). Anyway Souji arrives there at night and Yosuke
just says
I’m sorry I’m not a good friend. I didn’t mean to annoy you so much and I know I can be a handful. Thanks for trying to stick around but…if you don’t want to be friends with me anymore, I understand (and oh man this is killing him on the inside because he thought they would be bf5ever because yeah. But he needs to rip this bandaid off because thinking that Souji might actually hate him is the worst.) etc etc he is basically projecting all of his self-doubts and hates into this conversation with Souji.
And this can end a couple of ways.
Souji can deny everything and try to get back to status quo and they can go back to secret pining and try to work past these feelings by themselves until they can convince themselves that it would never work so they should just be friends (OH LORD NO, I WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO TAKE THIS ONE)
Souji can confess. He can let Yosuke know everything he’s been feeling. He can let him know that he’s started to like Yosuke more than he really should. And that he knows Yosuke would be uncomfortable if he had told him before and that the last thing Souji would ever want is for Yosuke to be uncomfortable with him. But if not saying these things would make Yosuke leave him anyways, he’ll tell him everything. AND THEN THEY KISS. (more like Yosuke stares in realization and disbelief, snaps back to himself, walks over awkwardly and just….hugs him tight while he comes to term with the fact that it’s the exact opposite of all his fears and he’s not losing his best friend, but can actually gain something more wow
Katseeter: if the first option happened I would actually die, RIP me, killed by bitter OTP feelings, but the second option, yes, hugs, just hugs as they come to terms with this new development in their relationship
So many bitter OTP feelins oh my god. This is a pairing that I feel really strongly for, but I’ve never really realized the extent. I just want everything to work out for them uughgugggh.
Thank you for sitting through all of my word and feeling vomit. I think I’m going to…draw out my feelings for them soon. OH MAN.