optimism - is it a state of being hopeful or fulla crap???

[chikadee_nz]

Feeling ok today am all dressed up again... you guys wouldn't recognise me i have 2 interviews so am dressed all professional. got a skirt on my ankle boots and a black and white top.. i even have my hair back in a messy bun! the HORROR! i look kinda cool in a grown up kinda way. am tired though got up early again at 4:50am. scram was in a meowie mood so woke up the whole house while i was in the shower and i could hear him but nothing i could do about it. ended up letting him in while i was drying myself and he smooched my wet legs covering them in ginga fur - great look! afterwards followed me into bedroom and clawed me cos i wasn't pattin him... but hey i was trying to get dressed! love that creature the lil shit! so what am i doing online? well at the mo i am really broke, got no income coming in and have like $50 bucks to last me till i am working... its disappearing fast. what with the bus tickets and general expenses, i may have no income but i still gotta live got food to buy cat to feed etc i am almost out of shampoo and conditioner. its sooo frustrating. my old job owes me money if they don't pay me on wednesday i think i shall go pay them a visit. i am entitled to that money... so i better get it. its like 2 weeks late already! i need it hell if they could give me part of it i'd be happy! i owe megga money to my sister and her hubby they lent it to me to stop the debt collectors in nz from sending me to baycorp (i haven't been able to pay my bank loan) i also haven't been able to pay rent in 2 weeks tis such shit - i am broker than when i was a student... at least back then i had my job and my student allowance! i have been soooo depserate i have seriously considered working in a supermarket or as a cleaner. can you imagine? luckily no one knows me here so no public humiliation. best get going... this is $3.60 an hour...bye for now xxx

.....i am optimistic about the future.....

....really.

j