being grounded sucks.

[chik230]

yeah this is so gay.. I'm at home right now. of course. being grounded is absolutely the worst. I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm gonna die. fo real. Right now I'm on the computer cuz I told my dad that I'm lookin for a new hairstyle.. well I am. but he doesn't know I'm online really. But I'm chillin talkin to Sam n Ash. yeah so tomorrow hopefully my mom lets me go to Christina's to get my hair done. If not it looks like I'm cutting and dying it myself. and that might get a lil messy. but whatever. So yeah another week is going by and my parents haven't even budged yet. Im not even allowed to use the phone yet. well I do when theyre not around but still. like right now I wanna call Phil. even though yesterday I called him and he didn't even really wanna talk to me.. that's what it seems like. I'm like okay the one chance I get you don't even wanna talk. But whatever. I guess I just won't try to call him anymore. homo. anyways. other than being grounded and all I guess things are okay. well I don't even know not really. I just don't care anymore. I just can't wait till I get to go out again. That'll be the day. GOD. I'm so mad. whatever life sucks. well Friday we get paid. and my checks gonna be like whoa! cuz I've been working like everyday that last two weeks. just so I can get the fuck out of my house. I can't take my mom anymore she's killin me I just wanna smack her sometimes. I seriously canNOT stand her for one more day. thank god she's at work right now. I got like another hour. lol. but yeah my life is just falling down all around me it feels like. seriously.. just with everything. It feels like me and phil are falling apart. I just miss the old Phil.. alot. I hate how he has changed and he doesn't even talk to me anymore and when he does, its like I have to force things out of him or he's lying or something I dunno he just doesn't care.. at all. It makes me sorta sad. but I don't think there's anything I can do anyways. and fuckin I dunno. but yeah. this update was really shitty just cuz it's all about the shitty things that are going on in my life right now. but that's just the way it is so sorry. but I'll try to update some other time. maybe things will start getting better soon. wish me luck.
love, jenny