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hey whats goin on... I'm sittin at home right now.. chillin.. I should be in bed right now but I just can't sleep.. I don't think I'm gona be able to tonite.. This break has been okay so far even though its only been like 3 days..its all good. Umm I've been chillin with Sam and Phil alot.. fun times.. I miss Kristen thou.. and alot of shit has just been goin on.. I just dunno anymore.. it's all so confusing. Today was just like the worst day.. I sat at home till like 6. and picked Phil up from Rickys and we didn't do anything. and he came to McDonalds with me cuz he didn't really have anywhere to go.. but that didn't last long cuz he called Meghan of course.. and then I was crying. and he doesn't care. but w/e I'll just get over it I guess. like I do. cuz I love that kid too much to let him go. But it doesn't seem like he feels the same anymore. It doesn't even seem like he cares.. or he wants to be with me. I know I'm probly just stupid for saying that but I'm just confused right now and I don't know what to think cuz he doesn't really talk to me.. god I dunno. I just want to be able to talk to him and I don't think I can cuz I don't wanna get him mad or say anything wrong. But I just wanna get it all out at the same time too. uuuuuuuhhhhh.. I dunno. well tomorrows Christmas Eve.. and I'm excited.. not so much anymroe but I am a little. I hope it's a good one. My family is comin over tomorrow. and then I duno what else I'm gonna do I wanna exchange presents with Phil but I duno if we're gonna see eachother. :-\ and I might go to midnight mass. If I'm up to it. Blah. I don't even know what esle to say. Hope everyone has a good xmas. I'm just gonna go now and see if I can fall asleep. I wanna talk to Phil so bad right now but bum is sleeping. oh well. I'll update sometime later. maybe tonite who knows. Love, Jenny