Just You and Me. CHAP 4
Title: Just You and Me. CHAP 4
Pairing: Nakashima Aya x Chinen Yuri
Sumarry: 2 shining idols fall for each other. What’s the both of them got to lose?
Content: [Career. Rivals. Friends. School. Family. Love ♥]
NOTE: Sorry if it’s a Chinen fanfic again. Omg, Sorry! I just can’t help it Dx -chii
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Aya sat at the kitchen table across from her bandmates, looking down at her food, her mind elsewhere. She wasn’t sure just how long she had been sitting there as she was deep in thought on how silent her bandmates were since she came home. She glanced up, looking across the table to her friends, who were eating in silence and listening to the evening news from the television that was on in the living room.
"Anou, What's the problem?" Aya finally gathered the nerve to ask as the news station went for a commercial break.
"Aya, Y-your.."
"Nani?" Aya worriedly tilted her head.
"Anou, Aya..Your forbidden to see Chinen-kun"
"Eh? But-- Nande?!" Aya shook her head and came a flashback.
- Flash back -
"Chii-chan~"
"Anou, Aya, isn't this the best day ever? For one day, we're together and we left our career on hold!" Chinen chuckled.
"I'm still worried. CrossOver's album releasing is held right now and I'm not present~" She frowned.
"It's fine. I left HeySayJump for awhile too. Their guesting in some shows by now, I told them I'll be busy"
Aya eyed him, she sighed worriedly and decided to just go home.
- End of Flash back -
"That's what Manager-san told us. He knew it, Gomen Aya we..weren't able to--"
"It's fine.." She sighed.
"No, Aya. Gomenasai~"
"I knew it would end up like this.." Aya slammed the dining table and went upstairs. Suzuki-chan, which happened to be the closest member to her, chased her on the way to her room.
"Ay--" Before she could speak up, Aya threw a pillow on her face, "Aya, Just tell me everything. I'll listen"
"I love my career, but I'd rather lose my job than lose him~" She gave her I-think-I'm-gonna-cry-now face.
"The problem is, His career. Aya.."
"What do you mean, Suzu-chan?"
"Manager-san never talked to Johnny-san. NEVER, But they did have this conversation together last 1pm after our releasing of albums"
"What did they talked about?"
"We were eaves-dropping and we heard you both are in major trouble~ If you'll keep on dating secretly or even have conversations, you'll both lose your career. Aya, your one of the shining idols of this generation. Don't waste that!"
Aya sighed and whacked her head with her pillow, "Stupid mee! >:("
"Aya, the best you can do is..Stay away"
"Bu--"
"It's for you..and probably for him too"
"What should I tell him? He'll feel bad that I didn't even fight for him" And atlast, those tears she kept, streamed down her face. Suzuki patted her shoulders and comforted her, "Nothing left to do~ Nothing else.."
--
Chinen and Aya met at the park, SECRETLY. This will be the last time. I promise. Aya sighed and tapped Chinen's shoulders to catch his attention.
"Nani?"
"C-Chinen. Let's break up"
"Ehh?! Why all of a sudden? Is there something wrong? What did I do? Tell me!"
"Chii, it's for the best. Trust me~" She was fighting off her tears.
"Best? N-No! How could you-- Aya, I thought you..You.." Chinen wasn't able to complete his sentence.
His right hand is now covering a part of his face. Aya heard a long, deep sigh escape from him. He was processing the things that she had just said. Aya thought he was crying and she was even more afraid that she would start to shed tears over this heartfelt talk.
"It’s not like that, Chii. You and I… we could never be together as long as we are in this kind of work. We can never really have what we want and you know that"
"I don't understand"
"We chose to be in this industry knowing fully-well that we could not always have what we want. We must have sacrificed a lot of things along the way and love just happened to be the first casualty"
"Aya.."
Aya's right hand instinctively and slowly went up to his face. She caressed his left cheek and he took off his hand and it was there that she saw that he too was trying to fight back tears.
She continued, "Chinen, I’m sorry that we didn’t have this conversation earlier but with this I -," She paused to correct herself. “--No. we, can finally move on.”
"Thank you for everything. The time I had with you allowed me to see the real you. The you that only a few people have been lucky enough to get to know. And for all it was worth, you’ve made me stronger and I feel blessed with the knowledge that I had once loved you deeply and must now love you only as a friend"
She could tell that he was somewhat in shock at her revelation. Aya merely bowed her head, wanting to avoid what his eyes would try to tell her.
'I would miss him. But I was finally moving on. And my final gesture of affection for my first love was to lean over with my bowed head onto his chest. I thought I would cry but the tears still didn’t come. His hands slowly took hold of my shoulder, steadying me. But then he hugged me. It was a bit fierce. His chin came to rest on my hat and my hands had begun to move on their own and envelope his slender but firm, chiselled waistline.
We must have stayed like that for three minutes. I released him, "Chinen, Good luck" I took a step back then walked away'
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- Chinen Yuri's POV -
A week passed and she didn’t talk to me at all. She had become an expert in coming in without me sensing her until she was already at her seat. Of course, Suzuki and Mirai might be helping her too as they were always going over to her seat to talk stuff, easily shielding me from her, and they’d usually leave together to eat lunch or go home together at the end of the day. I think they already knew about what happened to me and Aya.
It was much easier before. There were no lines drawn back then. They were just unspoken. Nonexistent. But it was rather quite vexing that I was no longer having conversations with her despite this narrow gap between us. My being left-handed was like a natural wall. I didn’t know if it made me look more hostile but at least it saved me from every temptation to sneak glances at her or have an excuse to start a conversation with her.
If she was indeed having difficulty talking to me because of what happened back then it was the same with me. I had decided not to speak to her unless she spoke to me first for fear of bringing up painful memories of that day. Math problems were easy compared to this. There were just too many variables involved and they couldn’t be easily factored in. When last I read, emotions still weren’t quantifiable.
She was really getting along fine without me in her life now. I might as well get used to it. I’ve overanalyzed things too much already and it was giving me an annoying headache.
I shrugged it off and rest my face on my palm, 'Why did she even decided to broke up? Doesn't she know I'd rather lose my career than lose her?'
Pairing: Nakashima Aya x Chinen Yuri
Sumarry: 2 shining idols fall for each other. What’s the both of them got to lose?
Content: [Career. Rivals. Friends. School. Family. Love ♥]
NOTE: Sorry if it’s a Chinen fanfic again. Omg, Sorry! I just can’t help it Dx -chii
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Aya sat at the kitchen table across from her bandmates, looking down at her food, her mind elsewhere. She wasn’t sure just how long she had been sitting there as she was deep in thought on how silent her bandmates were since she came home. She glanced up, looking across the table to her friends, who were eating in silence and listening to the evening news from the television that was on in the living room.
"Anou, What's the problem?" Aya finally gathered the nerve to ask as the news station went for a commercial break.
"Aya, Y-your.."
"Nani?" Aya worriedly tilted her head.
"Anou, Aya..Your forbidden to see Chinen-kun"
"Eh? But-- Nande?!" Aya shook her head and came a flashback.
- Flash back -
"Chii-chan~"
"Anou, Aya, isn't this the best day ever? For one day, we're together and we left our career on hold!" Chinen chuckled.
"I'm still worried. CrossOver's album releasing is held right now and I'm not present~" She frowned.
"It's fine. I left HeySayJump for awhile too. Their guesting in some shows by now, I told them I'll be busy"
Aya eyed him, she sighed worriedly and decided to just go home.
- End of Flash back -
"That's what Manager-san told us. He knew it, Gomen Aya we..weren't able to--"
"It's fine.." She sighed.
"No, Aya. Gomenasai~"
"I knew it would end up like this.." Aya slammed the dining table and went upstairs. Suzuki-chan, which happened to be the closest member to her, chased her on the way to her room.
"Ay--" Before she could speak up, Aya threw a pillow on her face, "Aya, Just tell me everything. I'll listen"
"I love my career, but I'd rather lose my job than lose him~" She gave her I-think-I'm-gonna-cry-now face.
"The problem is, His career. Aya.."
"What do you mean, Suzu-chan?"
"Manager-san never talked to Johnny-san. NEVER, But they did have this conversation together last 1pm after our releasing of albums"
"What did they talked about?"
"We were eaves-dropping and we heard you both are in major trouble~ If you'll keep on dating secretly or even have conversations, you'll both lose your career. Aya, your one of the shining idols of this generation. Don't waste that!"
Aya sighed and whacked her head with her pillow, "Stupid mee! >:("
"Aya, the best you can do is..Stay away"
"Bu--"
"It's for you..and probably for him too"
"What should I tell him? He'll feel bad that I didn't even fight for him" And atlast, those tears she kept, streamed down her face. Suzuki patted her shoulders and comforted her, "Nothing left to do~ Nothing else.."
--
Chinen and Aya met at the park, SECRETLY. This will be the last time. I promise. Aya sighed and tapped Chinen's shoulders to catch his attention.
"Nani?"
"C-Chinen. Let's break up"
"Ehh?! Why all of a sudden? Is there something wrong? What did I do? Tell me!"
"Chii, it's for the best. Trust me~" She was fighting off her tears.
"Best? N-No! How could you-- Aya, I thought you..You.." Chinen wasn't able to complete his sentence.
His right hand is now covering a part of his face. Aya heard a long, deep sigh escape from him. He was processing the things that she had just said. Aya thought he was crying and she was even more afraid that she would start to shed tears over this heartfelt talk.
"It’s not like that, Chii. You and I… we could never be together as long as we are in this kind of work. We can never really have what we want and you know that"
"I don't understand"
"We chose to be in this industry knowing fully-well that we could not always have what we want. We must have sacrificed a lot of things along the way and love just happened to be the first casualty"
"Aya.."
Aya's right hand instinctively and slowly went up to his face. She caressed his left cheek and he took off his hand and it was there that she saw that he too was trying to fight back tears.
She continued, "Chinen, I’m sorry that we didn’t have this conversation earlier but with this I -," She paused to correct herself. “--No. we, can finally move on.”
"Thank you for everything. The time I had with you allowed me to see the real you. The you that only a few people have been lucky enough to get to know. And for all it was worth, you’ve made me stronger and I feel blessed with the knowledge that I had once loved you deeply and must now love you only as a friend"
She could tell that he was somewhat in shock at her revelation. Aya merely bowed her head, wanting to avoid what his eyes would try to tell her.
'I would miss him. But I was finally moving on. And my final gesture of affection for my first love was to lean over with my bowed head onto his chest. I thought I would cry but the tears still didn’t come. His hands slowly took hold of my shoulder, steadying me. But then he hugged me. It was a bit fierce. His chin came to rest on my hat and my hands had begun to move on their own and envelope his slender but firm, chiselled waistline.
We must have stayed like that for three minutes. I released him, "Chinen, Good luck" I took a step back then walked away'
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- Chinen Yuri's POV -
A week passed and she didn’t talk to me at all. She had become an expert in coming in without me sensing her until she was already at her seat. Of course, Suzuki and Mirai might be helping her too as they were always going over to her seat to talk stuff, easily shielding me from her, and they’d usually leave together to eat lunch or go home together at the end of the day. I think they already knew about what happened to me and Aya.
It was much easier before. There were no lines drawn back then. They were just unspoken. Nonexistent. But it was rather quite vexing that I was no longer having conversations with her despite this narrow gap between us. My being left-handed was like a natural wall. I didn’t know if it made me look more hostile but at least it saved me from every temptation to sneak glances at her or have an excuse to start a conversation with her.
If she was indeed having difficulty talking to me because of what happened back then it was the same with me. I had decided not to speak to her unless she spoke to me first for fear of bringing up painful memories of that day. Math problems were easy compared to this. There were just too many variables involved and they couldn’t be easily factored in. When last I read, emotions still weren’t quantifiable.
She was really getting along fine without me in her life now. I might as well get used to it. I’ve overanalyzed things too much already and it was giving me an annoying headache.
I shrugged it off and rest my face on my palm, 'Why did she even decided to broke up? Doesn't she know I'd rather lose my career than lose her?'