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"i struggle to believe that people love me and that i am loveable
i could say i have cognitive dissonance, that lots of people show me love and it’s just not getting through to me
or maybe it’s that what i see as love is completely different from what people say it is
i think i would feel more loved if someone were hurting me"
a person I follow on tumblr wrote this, and I wanted to share it here because I think at one point I talked about this, but I don't think I could put it in the right words