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i saw her face peer on the bus, she was amazing. Her face radiated a bright glow, iridescent and unbelievable. but only for a short second and she was off it and on her way. she didnt seem to wait or hesitate, her footsteps streamed and streamed. each pace longer than the last. heart sinking now, i race off the bus in a frantic battle position, my mouth open but dry, able to speak but paralyzed, i walk or run for her. the night sky was dark, a pitch so deadly that light was only a soft dream. no stars, no hearts, just blackness upon blackness. the cold sidewalk shuttered, my feet kicked its way towards her. but she was on her way, she was turning corners, and i was, well, catching dust. lust. maybe thats it. infatuated by moons. satisfied by stars. race wind walk trying to talk. my mouth cringes, thread luckily sowed my lips together, escaping breath was pointless. she was in her room now, red sheets thrown on the floor. computer screen buzzing, she was laying, uninterested. i wanted to ask for a sip, but deadly answers would be my end. my end i say. so i embrace the exit door, lingering in hopes of her waking. her body wrestles with the sheets, i am convinced that she rather sleep. i was so close, her heart was locked down. blocked off, detour this way. i was in arms reach and yet i couldnt. my words sealed off, unable to mutter any noise word chirp or sound. so leaving is my only option. my head down, sulking, but eventually understanding. brighter days to come, alas, my eyes open to grasping walls of white willows, yellow ferns, white walls and white halls, bare bathroom sinks, my heart developed a tendency to sink. blink, sleep walk awake.