no matter what remember i'd always come for you

[chiefbluehair]

i been back a month and not a single thing has gone right for me since i got back. the hotel i stayed in was nice but of course when i was staying there they had a flood and there was lots of noisy construction going on and some of the amenities were gone and you could only do laundry after 5. i miss paul so much and i remember the last moment we spent together at the airport i cried the whole flight home and for days after that. it doesnt bother me as much but if i think about it too hard ill start to cry. I wish he could come over here so we could be together but stupid immigration laws and no jobs will prevent that from happening anytime soon. which is so fucking stupid its unbelievable the stupid shit that keeps happening to me. so i move into this place and dont get me wrong it is nice and its certainly better than of the places i had seen. but here theres not enough privacy and you can hear people walk around above you and sometimes you can hear people talkin on the phone. i miss my old apartment so bad id give anything to go back there it was such a nice place and i actually grew attached to it.
I just wish there was some way paul could come here to live with me. theres a temp work visa but its so hard to obtain i wonder how all the other people who get it do it.
UGGH i could use some help seriously.