[one-shot] Jealousy: I wanted him for myself
Title: Jealousy: I wanted him for myself
Pairing: HenWook
Genre: Angst then some Fluff
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Ryeowook broke up because he was jealous.
A/N: Some parts of the story are based on actual events but majority of it are just my crazy mind at work. Please read the author’s note at the end ^^
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Ryeowook stares outside the glass windows seeing the lighted streets of Singapore. He is in fact tired and restless since the whole week has been just hell; and I mean it figuratively. Not that he didn’t like performing, it’s just that he is really tired cramming several performances in one week in three different cities around Asia. If they didn’t have Super Show that weekend, they may have performed in Music Station with TVXQ and SNSD, too bad he won’t be able to meet Avril.
Yet his heart is more tired and he heavily sighs as he holds back the tears. He’s been waiting for hours for someone yet he didn’t come, Ryeowook swore he had enough as he closes his eyes and rested for the night.
The last show ended and Singapore was so warm and Indo ELFs even gave them a gold medal, how nice ELFs are. As much as Ryeowook wanted to smile, his heart aches so much that he wanted to end everything now, but he knows that he can[t die now, not now, not ever; what will happen to his mom? It’ll definitely break his poor mom’s heart.
And so he retired to his bedroom and arranged his things before taking a quick nap right before their flight back to Korea. He was silent the whole trip and he knows to well that one word muttered would end everything in tears. As silent as he was on the plane, he was more silent as he enters his room and stares at the cold and dark room, how did it end up like this.
A soft knock was heard and a figure entered and sat on Ryeowook’s bed as the latter pretend to be asleep.
“Hyung, I know that you’re tired.”
The lad muttered as he brushes the bangs off of Ryeowook’s face that were not covered by the blanket.
“Henry, I’m tired, let’s end this..”
Ryeowook mutters beneath the sheets and Henry’s hand froze in place, what is Ryeowook saying?
“Hyung.. I don’t understand.”
Ryeowook removed the blanket and sat up staring at Henry with tired and teary eyes.
“It Won’t work.. It just won’t!!!”
Ryeowook muttered and pushes Henry off of the bed and the latter stood up, bowed low and walked out the room. Ryeowook cried hard as he let this drag on for so long hurting both of them in the end.
Morning came just like that and Ryeowook didn’t even get a shut eye, thinking how he even dragged himself into a relationship that he knows was doomed from the start. But life goes on, they always say, so he walked into the practice room where Siwon, Kyuhyun and Donghae were already waiting, oh yeah, Eunhyuk and Sungmin are joining them today. He walked casually and let his bag down on one corner and walked to the floor length mirror at the far end of the room and arranged his hair, the shade of brown glistening with the light.
Zhou Mi entered with their manager hyung and they were surprised to see that Henry is not with Ryeowook.
“Eh, Wookie, Isn’t Henry with You?”
“why would he be with me?”
The others were surprised with Ryeowook’s tone of voice and they didn’t expect such answer from him.
“he called me last night saying that he won’t be going back to our dorm since he’ll be sleeping in your room.”
Zhou mi muttered, there is this hint of fear for the worst in his tone and everyone can feel it, although Henry has accustomed himself in Korea, it is still not his territory, he may still get lost and ran into an accident, get mobbed by people, stalked by crazy fangirls, attacked by whoever and whatever morbid things that can happen to their baby, Henry is still the youngest of all..
“Don’t worry about him too much, he’s all grown up now! He can handle himself!”
Yeah.. that’s not Ryeowook talking! This made the others speak up, how can this happen to Ryeowook?
“Ryeowook, what happened? How could you say that to Henry? You love him way too much to let him wander around unattended!”
Their manager told him. He knows too well not to ask, he’s been with the boys for five years and has been their confidant and match-maker, who ever thought of shipping Eunhae and feeding the crazy fangirls’ mind with that OTP or the prince and princess of SJ?
“I’m not his guardian to look after him..”
Everyone was silent and Ryeowook turned around to face the mirror, everyone saw silent tears falling from his eyes.
“I fell out of love… My heart got tired… and time doesn’t permit…”
Ryeowook muttered and there were gasps and Eunhyuk approached him.
“is it because he had a guesting in Strong Heart?”
Eunhyuk asked and Ryeowook nodded then shook his head.
“Ryeowook, this is not you!”
Sungmin held his hand and wiped his tears; Ryeowook’s has been his twinnie for so long, how could he not see this coming.
“You Love Henry..”
Ryeowook shrugged Sungmin off and faced the mirror again.
“I loved him, yes but things change.. nothing lasts forever.”
If anyone is looking for a dramatic ator, maybe you can cast Ryeowook now for he is really taking this seriously, his voice and tone changes, tears endlessly flowing and every word muttered is full of emotion, but alas, he is reading no script, this is real and this makes it more painful.
“Henry, he just used me! Four years ago, he was this fragile kid that needed arms to shelter him. I was there because I genuinely cared for him. I feel his pain, I share his passion for music and most importantly, I love him.”
Ryeowook pauses as he catches his breath, tears rolling down his face.
“I look after him not because of fanservice.. I care for that mocheeks and I wanted to make him feel welcome. If I could slash every throat that mutters SJ13 I would’ve done it.. that’s how much I love him!”
Ok, too morbid choice of words Ryeowook.
“But now that he has the spotlight, he forgets about me.. he just used me as leverage and then throws me away just like some used paper thrown in the garbage bin afterwards..”
Kyuhyun stood from his chair and kept the PSP he’s playing.
“so now that he is gaining more attention, you wanted him out? Real mature Ryeowook! If you care for him as much as you say you are, then you should be happy with his success. Did Sungmin hyung gave up on me after I was accepted? Did he break up with me? Did he even spat on my face how ungrateful I was after being popular? Did he even..”
“Kyuhyun that’s enough!”
Sungmin grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and dragged him away, Kyuhyun lets go.
“No it’s not!!! Ryeowook.. You’re selfish!!!”
Kyuhyun shouted and this made Ryeowook froze.
“Maybe I am selfish!!! I wanted him for myself!! I want him to think of me all th time. I want his attention focused on me! I want him to say my name over and over again, just my name! I want him to ask me to teach him how to drive a car; I want him to sing for me! I want every fanfiction written to be henwook, not HenMi, not Kyuwook, not yewook, not minwook, not henhae not any pairing but henwook! And most importantly, I want him to follow me on damn twitter!!”
Everyone was stunned with his revelations, and they don’t know if they’ll laugh or cry or what, it’s too damn complicated.
“so just because I taught him how to drive, you’re getting mad?”
Siwon asked.
“and because I am paired with him in some fanfics?”
Zhou Mi added
“yes!! I should be the one teaching him how to drive!! And Zhou Mi, you have Kyumi! Stick with it! Go have an ot3 with Kyumin, don’t steal my Henry!! And you Kyu!! Why is Henry following you and not me!! He should be following me!! ME NOT KYU!!!”
This is getting complicated and before any more chaos is created, Yesung entered the room and walked straight to Ryeowook and shouted at the saeng.
“How could you do that to Henry? You do know that he’s sick!”
“Yeah! He’s sick of love! And it’s not my fault!”
Ryeowook answered back, the room is tensed.
“oh great, you learned to talked back, what is Heechul teaching you?! Early Morning Jongjin called me saying that he found Henry almost frozen outside our dorm and refuses to enter. He has this effing fever and he looks so pale he looks dead!”
Ryeowook was speechless.
“he waited for you outside and when you came out, you dismissed him!”
“I did not! I didn’t see him!!”
“oh so you even denied the fact that he was calling for you! The guards can attest to that!”
Yesung’s phone suddenly rang and it was his mom, he put it on loud speaker.
“Jongwoon dear, Henry is really sick and needs to go to the hospital fast, but the lad refuses, he can’t even breathe properly and I think he’s having convulsions. He just keeps on muttering ‘mianhe Ryeowook’Jongwoon come quickly!”
“Great, you wanted him to sing you a song? My first love broke my heart for the first time, and Henry’s like Wookie, Wookie Wookie no… thought you’d always be mine~~”
Donghae sang the last part which made Eunhyuk and the rest laugh a bit, Ryeowook wasn’t too happy about it.
“so..”
Yesung muttered to silence everyone. Ryeowook just looked at him then rushed out of the room without another word. Yesung smirked and counted to three in his mind and on cue, Ryeowook returned while panicking.
“Hyung!! Where!! Where the hell is Henry now!! Tell me!! Tell ME!! FASTER HYUNG!!!’
Yesung smiled widely and approached the younger then patted him on the back.
“I’ll better drive!”
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Ryeowook arrived at the Kim’s residence and bowed low as he greeted Mr. Kim then rushed upstairs to Jongwoon’s room where Henry lies and almost dying[?] ok I’m a bit exaggerating, he’s just delusional and having convulsions.
“Henry!”
Ryeowook muttered as he enters the room and Mrs. Kim smiled before she left the two to talk and have a good talk.
“Henry..”
Ryeowook was in tears as he sees Henry lying in the bed, eyes closed and body trembling. Henry heard a familiar voice and his soul was revived, his heart was beating fast and blood rushed through his veins, bringing him to life. He tried to open his eyes with much difficulty, he opened his mouth but try as he might, and no sound was heard.
Henry mastered all his strength and sat up. Ryeowook tried to stop him but Henry did what his mind was telling him. Ryeowook was surprised when the younger knelt before him, forehead touching the carpeted floor and his breathing heavy.
“Ryeowook, mianhe..”
Henry repeatedly says the words as he fights for his love and life, yeah he’s one Romeo. Ryeowook can’t help but cry, why didn’t he see this side of Henry, he knows this ball of cheeks love him, but he didn’t know so much that he’s willing to die for him.
Ryeowook bent low and grabbed Henry to make him stand up, but the younger was scorching hot with fever and his eyes closed. He was motionless and Ryeowook feared for the worse, he can’t lose Henry, not now.
He grabbed the medicine on the bedside table and popped it in Henry’s mouth. Since the latter cannot take in anything, Ryeowook took a sip of the water and passed it to Henry, he gotta do it to save Henry’s life, and he can’t be choosy at this point.
Siwon entered the room when he heard Ryeowook scream for help and he was able to carry Henry out of the room and into their manager’s car and sstraight to the emergency room.
News leaked out about Henry’s condition and most of the netizens comments are for Henry’s recovery; Ryeowook felt a dejavu: he argued with Kyuhyun before the accident and now he broke up with Henry before this incident, is Ryeowook that much of a bad luck magnet?
Henry’s eyes opened and the first thing he saw was a smile from Ryeowook. He cried as he tries to mutter words that Ryeowook would never want to hear again: Mianhe.But Ryeowook smiled and kissed Henry on his forehead as he mutters Saranghae.
“hyung, promise! I’ll follow you on twitter just don’t break up with me!”
Henry says desperately but Ryeowook just had a good laugh.
“I won’t be selfish and jealous Henry, as long as you follow me with your heart, twitter won’t matter.”
Then they both laugh and ended with a smile.
Maybe a little jealousy is healthy, just enough to make the other know how much you mean to him. But too much then it’s a little creepy: we can’t tie a collar around our partners like dogs!
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Pairing: HenWook
Genre: Angst then some Fluff
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Ryeowook broke up because he was jealous.
A/N: Some parts of the story are based on actual events but majority of it are just my crazy mind at work. Please read the author’s note at the end ^^
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Ryeowook stares outside the glass windows seeing the lighted streets of Singapore. He is in fact tired and restless since the whole week has been just hell; and I mean it figuratively. Not that he didn’t like performing, it’s just that he is really tired cramming several performances in one week in three different cities around Asia. If they didn’t have Super Show that weekend, they may have performed in Music Station with TVXQ and SNSD, too bad he won’t be able to meet Avril.
Yet his heart is more tired and he heavily sighs as he holds back the tears. He’s been waiting for hours for someone yet he didn’t come, Ryeowook swore he had enough as he closes his eyes and rested for the night.
The last show ended and Singapore was so warm and Indo ELFs even gave them a gold medal, how nice ELFs are. As much as Ryeowook wanted to smile, his heart aches so much that he wanted to end everything now, but he knows that he can[t die now, not now, not ever; what will happen to his mom? It’ll definitely break his poor mom’s heart.
And so he retired to his bedroom and arranged his things before taking a quick nap right before their flight back to Korea. He was silent the whole trip and he knows to well that one word muttered would end everything in tears. As silent as he was on the plane, he was more silent as he enters his room and stares at the cold and dark room, how did it end up like this.
A soft knock was heard and a figure entered and sat on Ryeowook’s bed as the latter pretend to be asleep.
“Hyung, I know that you’re tired.”
The lad muttered as he brushes the bangs off of Ryeowook’s face that were not covered by the blanket.
“Henry, I’m tired, let’s end this..”
Ryeowook mutters beneath the sheets and Henry’s hand froze in place, what is Ryeowook saying?
“Hyung.. I don’t understand.”
Ryeowook removed the blanket and sat up staring at Henry with tired and teary eyes.
“It Won’t work.. It just won’t!!!”
Ryeowook muttered and pushes Henry off of the bed and the latter stood up, bowed low and walked out the room. Ryeowook cried hard as he let this drag on for so long hurting both of them in the end.
Morning came just like that and Ryeowook didn’t even get a shut eye, thinking how he even dragged himself into a relationship that he knows was doomed from the start. But life goes on, they always say, so he walked into the practice room where Siwon, Kyuhyun and Donghae were already waiting, oh yeah, Eunhyuk and Sungmin are joining them today. He walked casually and let his bag down on one corner and walked to the floor length mirror at the far end of the room and arranged his hair, the shade of brown glistening with the light.
Zhou Mi entered with their manager hyung and they were surprised to see that Henry is not with Ryeowook.
“Eh, Wookie, Isn’t Henry with You?”
“why would he be with me?”
The others were surprised with Ryeowook’s tone of voice and they didn’t expect such answer from him.
“he called me last night saying that he won’t be going back to our dorm since he’ll be sleeping in your room.”
Zhou mi muttered, there is this hint of fear for the worst in his tone and everyone can feel it, although Henry has accustomed himself in Korea, it is still not his territory, he may still get lost and ran into an accident, get mobbed by people, stalked by crazy fangirls, attacked by whoever and whatever morbid things that can happen to their baby, Henry is still the youngest of all..
“Don’t worry about him too much, he’s all grown up now! He can handle himself!”
Yeah.. that’s not Ryeowook talking! This made the others speak up, how can this happen to Ryeowook?
“Ryeowook, what happened? How could you say that to Henry? You love him way too much to let him wander around unattended!”
Their manager told him. He knows too well not to ask, he’s been with the boys for five years and has been their confidant and match-maker, who ever thought of shipping Eunhae and feeding the crazy fangirls’ mind with that OTP or the prince and princess of SJ?
“I’m not his guardian to look after him..”
Everyone was silent and Ryeowook turned around to face the mirror, everyone saw silent tears falling from his eyes.
“I fell out of love… My heart got tired… and time doesn’t permit…”
Ryeowook muttered and there were gasps and Eunhyuk approached him.
“is it because he had a guesting in Strong Heart?”
Eunhyuk asked and Ryeowook nodded then shook his head.
“Ryeowook, this is not you!”
Sungmin held his hand and wiped his tears; Ryeowook’s has been his twinnie for so long, how could he not see this coming.
“You Love Henry..”
Ryeowook shrugged Sungmin off and faced the mirror again.
“I loved him, yes but things change.. nothing lasts forever.”
If anyone is looking for a dramatic ator, maybe you can cast Ryeowook now for he is really taking this seriously, his voice and tone changes, tears endlessly flowing and every word muttered is full of emotion, but alas, he is reading no script, this is real and this makes it more painful.
“Henry, he just used me! Four years ago, he was this fragile kid that needed arms to shelter him. I was there because I genuinely cared for him. I feel his pain, I share his passion for music and most importantly, I love him.”
Ryeowook pauses as he catches his breath, tears rolling down his face.
“I look after him not because of fanservice.. I care for that mocheeks and I wanted to make him feel welcome. If I could slash every throat that mutters SJ13 I would’ve done it.. that’s how much I love him!”
Ok, too morbid choice of words Ryeowook.
“But now that he has the spotlight, he forgets about me.. he just used me as leverage and then throws me away just like some used paper thrown in the garbage bin afterwards..”
Kyuhyun stood from his chair and kept the PSP he’s playing.
“so now that he is gaining more attention, you wanted him out? Real mature Ryeowook! If you care for him as much as you say you are, then you should be happy with his success. Did Sungmin hyung gave up on me after I was accepted? Did he break up with me? Did he even spat on my face how ungrateful I was after being popular? Did he even..”
“Kyuhyun that’s enough!”
Sungmin grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and dragged him away, Kyuhyun lets go.
“No it’s not!!! Ryeowook.. You’re selfish!!!”
Kyuhyun shouted and this made Ryeowook froze.
“Maybe I am selfish!!! I wanted him for myself!! I want him to think of me all th time. I want his attention focused on me! I want him to say my name over and over again, just my name! I want him to ask me to teach him how to drive a car; I want him to sing for me! I want every fanfiction written to be henwook, not HenMi, not Kyuwook, not yewook, not minwook, not henhae not any pairing but henwook! And most importantly, I want him to follow me on damn twitter!!”
Everyone was stunned with his revelations, and they don’t know if they’ll laugh or cry or what, it’s too damn complicated.
“so just because I taught him how to drive, you’re getting mad?”
Siwon asked.
“and because I am paired with him in some fanfics?”
Zhou Mi added
“yes!! I should be the one teaching him how to drive!! And Zhou Mi, you have Kyumi! Stick with it! Go have an ot3 with Kyumin, don’t steal my Henry!! And you Kyu!! Why is Henry following you and not me!! He should be following me!! ME NOT KYU!!!”
This is getting complicated and before any more chaos is created, Yesung entered the room and walked straight to Ryeowook and shouted at the saeng.
“How could you do that to Henry? You do know that he’s sick!”
“Yeah! He’s sick of love! And it’s not my fault!”
Ryeowook answered back, the room is tensed.
“oh great, you learned to talked back, what is Heechul teaching you?! Early Morning Jongjin called me saying that he found Henry almost frozen outside our dorm and refuses to enter. He has this effing fever and he looks so pale he looks dead!”
Ryeowook was speechless.
“he waited for you outside and when you came out, you dismissed him!”
“I did not! I didn’t see him!!”
“oh so you even denied the fact that he was calling for you! The guards can attest to that!”
Yesung’s phone suddenly rang and it was his mom, he put it on loud speaker.
“Jongwoon dear, Henry is really sick and needs to go to the hospital fast, but the lad refuses, he can’t even breathe properly and I think he’s having convulsions. He just keeps on muttering ‘mianhe Ryeowook’Jongwoon come quickly!”
“Great, you wanted him to sing you a song? My first love broke my heart for the first time, and Henry’s like Wookie, Wookie Wookie no… thought you’d always be mine~~”
Donghae sang the last part which made Eunhyuk and the rest laugh a bit, Ryeowook wasn’t too happy about it.
“so..”
Yesung muttered to silence everyone. Ryeowook just looked at him then rushed out of the room without another word. Yesung smirked and counted to three in his mind and on cue, Ryeowook returned while panicking.
“Hyung!! Where!! Where the hell is Henry now!! Tell me!! Tell ME!! FASTER HYUNG!!!’
Yesung smiled widely and approached the younger then patted him on the back.
“I’ll better drive!”
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Ryeowook arrived at the Kim’s residence and bowed low as he greeted Mr. Kim then rushed upstairs to Jongwoon’s room where Henry lies and almost dying[?] ok I’m a bit exaggerating, he’s just delusional and having convulsions.
“Henry!”
Ryeowook muttered as he enters the room and Mrs. Kim smiled before she left the two to talk and have a good talk.
“Henry..”
Ryeowook was in tears as he sees Henry lying in the bed, eyes closed and body trembling. Henry heard a familiar voice and his soul was revived, his heart was beating fast and blood rushed through his veins, bringing him to life. He tried to open his eyes with much difficulty, he opened his mouth but try as he might, and no sound was heard.
Henry mastered all his strength and sat up. Ryeowook tried to stop him but Henry did what his mind was telling him. Ryeowook was surprised when the younger knelt before him, forehead touching the carpeted floor and his breathing heavy.
“Ryeowook, mianhe..”
Henry repeatedly says the words as he fights for his love and life, yeah he’s one Romeo. Ryeowook can’t help but cry, why didn’t he see this side of Henry, he knows this ball of cheeks love him, but he didn’t know so much that he’s willing to die for him.
Ryeowook bent low and grabbed Henry to make him stand up, but the younger was scorching hot with fever and his eyes closed. He was motionless and Ryeowook feared for the worse, he can’t lose Henry, not now.
He grabbed the medicine on the bedside table and popped it in Henry’s mouth. Since the latter cannot take in anything, Ryeowook took a sip of the water and passed it to Henry, he gotta do it to save Henry’s life, and he can’t be choosy at this point.
Siwon entered the room when he heard Ryeowook scream for help and he was able to carry Henry out of the room and into their manager’s car and sstraight to the emergency room.
News leaked out about Henry’s condition and most of the netizens comments are for Henry’s recovery; Ryeowook felt a dejavu: he argued with Kyuhyun before the accident and now he broke up with Henry before this incident, is Ryeowook that much of a bad luck magnet?
Henry’s eyes opened and the first thing he saw was a smile from Ryeowook. He cried as he tries to mutter words that Ryeowook would never want to hear again: Mianhe.But Ryeowook smiled and kissed Henry on his forehead as he mutters Saranghae.
“hyung, promise! I’ll follow you on twitter just don’t break up with me!”
Henry says desperately but Ryeowook just had a good laugh.
“I won’t be selfish and jealous Henry, as long as you follow me with your heart, twitter won’t matter.”
Then they both laugh and ended with a smile.
Maybe a little jealousy is healthy, just enough to make the other know how much you mean to him. But too much then it’s a little creepy: we can’t tie a collar around our partners like dogs!
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