Thanks again to
themodestotter.
I know that I should have more of an open mind with Kurogane and Fai, but it’s just really hard. Still, I wanted to say that you made some interesting points. I may not agree with all of it, but it does make me consider things in a new light.
If you think back to xxxHolic, becoming a sacrifice isn’t always the best way to deal with things.
You’re right. That’s the lesson everyone has been trying to teach Watanuki for so long. He finally got it in the end, with a price. But Kurogane is a little different, because he doesn’t sacrifice himself. He’s a warrior and protects others with his strength. The only problem is that, while Fai was bleeding to death, Kurogane couldn’t save him in a way that he knew how. So he offered his blood to keep Fai alive, because protecting lives is what he does.
Kurogane, being a servant normally, is in a sort of “serving,” attitude. So he loves Fai by giving of himself, which isn’t always the best route.
No, it’s not the best route. We know that all too well from Holic, but it’s like I said before. Kurogane is a warrior, a ninja, and he’ll use whatever means he can to do what he needs to do. That’s just how he is.
It’s true, Fai does like attention I believe, and sometimes it gets the better of him. He does need to be more careful with his feelings. Though, if he wanted to run away, he could very well refuse to go on to the next world with the others. So I think there is some sort of attachment keeping him going.
Yes, that’s the wonderful thing about Tsubasa. These four people, who would never have met under normal circumstances, are thrown together and form a bond that is stronger than death is. They all love one another, whether platonically or romantically. And, even if Fai doesn’t think he deserves it, he appreciates that.
But I didn’t mean that Fai should be more careful with his feelings. He should be more careful with the feelings of others, because I don’t like anyone who leads people on like that.
I will admit that Fai is inexperienced when it comes to love. He still needs to learn about that. I doubt that he knew any of these things from his childhood. But everyone has potential! And I think Fai has a lot. He’s naturally caring and gentle, and knows the strengths of emotions. It could be cultivated into something beautiful.
I think so too. Fai just needs to give love a chance. He has to give the people who love him a chance, a chance to prove to him that he is a person they can put above their own selves.
I know that a bad past can be crippling. It still affects me today! So… it’s not so easy to get over. I bet Fai’s still trying, or is too scared to try. And it probably makes Kurogane angry because he doesn’t know how that feels. And that he wants to be able to know.
I have suffered horrible things in my past too, and that’s why I don’t like Fai’s reaction to his. The past is the past and you can’t change that, no matter how much you want to. You can only move forward with the people who are trying to understand the pain you went through. So you should accept them and not push them away.
Love is scary! Especially when you don’t know how it feels. And Fai is a very cautious person. But also, if all balanced people got together with other balanced people, who would help the unbalanced people? I think it’s a bit unfair to compare people like that when it comes to relationships… When you love someone, there’s no such thing as a better choice or a worse choice, because you love them, and you don’t want to love anyone else.
Love is a scary thing, I know that. But it also isn’t some burden where you let your loved one kick you around, just because they’re “unbalanced” or “inexperienced when it comes to love”. And, while I can’t really judge Fai (fairly anyway), there is a fine line between what you can or can’t do with love.
And, to me, number one of what you can't do is that you shouldn’t hurt people, especially if they love you.
As I said before, either you love them or you don’t. Fai shouldn’t be leading Kurogane on like that, loving him when it suits him and pushing him away when he gets too close.
And I think Fai is trying, or at least realizing this.
I hope so, I really really hope so.
Of course, this is all speculation!
Everything I said before, in this rant and my previous one, is also speculation. But, as the fans, we can see things differently than the characters and have more insight about it. So I'm glad people are telling me about what they think as well, because it's obviously much more different.