Show me how you Burlesque
I have a weird obsession with different kind of braids these days. Dutch braids, french braids, 4-strand, 5-strand braids, all kinds of hairstyle that I can do with braids! Must be due to the pretty hairstyles I constantly see in Pretty Little Liars! I've always wanted to do pretty down-do braids, but living in Singapore, where the weather is bipolar and humid as fuck, it's so hard to have pretty down-do hairstyles without wanting to snip all of my hair off. Oh, first-class problems, hahah.
Sometime this week, I finally had the time to download 'Burlesque' and watch it. Not the most interesting plot, but the performances and dances were so powerful and inspiring. And I have to mention that Cam Gigandet is soo hot omg I was practically drooling over him half the movie!!! Loved Cher in the movie too, she is so gorgeous and amazing. X-tina of course, I love her!!!!!! I never knew what 'Burlesque' meant until I watched the movie and went to google it. Really really interesting, I must say! Very unique and different and pretty. I like it. If Singapore ever had those, damn I think it'd be snowing already. I have always wanted to be a performer and at some point through the movie, I had to pause it and proces my own thoughts. If only I had God-given talents like Christina Aguilera, with vocals that could rock any crowd and dancing skills that could entertain any audience, that would have drove me to continue pursuing my dreams. But the real world is so much more dry. I have passion, loads of it, but honestly it isn't enough, is it? I could be the most passionate performer in this entire world, but without the talents and skills to blossom and showcase on stage, I'm nothing but a wannabe. And to merely have 'talent' is never enough, you've got to be super duper good, so much so an entertainment company would even consider taking you in. There are a lot of people all striving for the same things that we all are, different, but very similar. Everytime I have these thoughts of wanting to go ahead with what my heart says, reality slaps me right across my face and it almost feels like a bucket of ice cold water is being poured over me.
I constantly dream about being on stage for my entire life and I often get inspired by yong talents such as Charice. She is an amazing performer with a very heart-warming background and story. Definitely it didn't take her only 2-months or 2 cents to get where she is now today. People like her inspires others to try, work hard and to never give up because you never know what might happen. However, after being inspired by these people whom I admire, I take a step back and I wonder, what about those people who tried and tried, and tried, time and time again, but never succeeded? What if their life stories were much more painful and tormenting? Why does nobody see them then? So what if we try? So what if we work hard? If we never get to succeed, we might not know where we might be at. What if I worked my fucking ass off but I can never get there? Why do we always focus on people who try and succeed? Sure, they are inspiring role models, but what about those people who have worked equally as hard but never got there? There's this certain loophole. While these people are motivating me and encouraging me to follow my dreams, they never ever talk about the consequences of not being able to hit the benchmark. What if I work hard and I fail? It's not like the entertainment industry is a very easy market. If I'm not the best of the best, I might turn out to be a huge flop and I might never get a job. What if I decide to leave everything behind and go ahead with me dream and I fail? Will I become a hobo? Will I turn into a waitress at a bar and work there for my entire life? The road is foggy I'm not sure what can even blow the fog away. Just some random thoughts.
On a lighter note, just this afternoon, I baked this Chocolate Orange Cream Cheese Pound Cake which is really really yummy!! My family loved it! It's been forever since I baked and goodnes it felt so good to be working in the kitchen again! Since it's the holidays now, I can't wait to bake my heart out!! I should really attempt more interesting baked goodies like bacon and chocolate. I never really fancied the idea of mixing my greasy tasty pork slices with something so rich and soothing, but I've heard it's a dammmmmmmn good combination! One day, when my balls finally decide to appear, I will try it.
And to those who are actually still reading this, I love you, you are beautiful, have a great day!
(btw, I just realized it's 'joy' and not 'happiness'!)
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