U-Kiss 101118, 101119
"Would you be my 천사? Would you be my angel?"
Before I start this fan-account, if you have been following me on twitter (@_chiddle) or have been reading this journal, you would know that I've been constantly working on something for Kiseop. Yes, the 1004 cranes. I started this 'mini individual project' all the way back in July and I only completed it a few days ago. It has taken me 5 months to complete everything, and I have given up almost everything and sacrificied a whole shitload of stuff just to finish this as well as see Kiseop. This 'project'/present/fan-meeting is so very important to me, i don't even know.... :'( (so please don't tease me about it? i will kill you for real)
Also, these 2 days have been really hectic for me. There was not a single moment where I could rest and it was just really scary and busy and very very tiring. T____T
I feel bad... but for almost the whole trip I have never looked at anyone else except him. I am sorry... )8
Day #1: 101118
I left my house at 9AM, looking like a terrorist with a huge-ass bag with clothes as well as carrying 2 huge bags of paper cranes. Whereever I walked to, people stared... and stared... and judged me... made comments... gave me looks... but I chose to ignore it. I went to IKEA to buy a super huuuuuuge box which cost me like $14... (T_T) But it was plastic and you could see-through it so it looked really colourful and pretty. Then I made my way to the airport, with 23479273 people judging me and my friend because we were both carrying the box, lol.
We reached the airport around 1130AM-12PM and this time it was really really confusing for me because the night before someone announced that the boys were arriving at Terminal 3, but there were barricades at Terminal 2. My friends and I went around Terminal 3 and looked around and finally decided to come back to Terminal 2 to wait. We actually had a dilemma because we didn't know where to stand, as there were loads of good spots to stand at~ There wasn't alot of people by then so we had alot of choices, we ended up standing at 3 different locations first HAHAHAH
So then, 3 other friends came and then I walked around trying to find people I know and talked to my friends whom I saw and we finally decided on a spot to stand at!! The 7 of us ended up standing at the barricades which were directly facing the door that U-Kiss was coming out from. Like, once you step out, you look straight, that's where we stood. A very good spot!! ^____^
Then, we just continued waiting while people ran from the belt back to the barricade and to the belt and to the barricade again. My friends have (very kindly) let me stand infront with my fanboard because they all knew how important it was for me TT__TT ♥ ♥ So this really big-sized security guard was standing infront of us and we were literally begging him to move away and I was close to tears, hahahahaha.
Then not long after, U-kiss came and took a nice long stroll to their belt to collect their luggages. Eli was looking f l y and Kiseop wore a beanie and sunglasses, Soohyun wore a hoodie, Xander... I can't remember T_T But Kevin was wearing very simple clothes and he was such a ninja alot of us couldn't even see him zoom past us. Soohyun was being a qt and taking his own sweet time to wave to everyone and inspect everyone of the fans, hahahah.
The boys spent about 10mins at the belt, waiting and collecting their luggage before they stood right infront of the door.... but they didn't leave yet!! ^___^ We were just waiting for them and waiting and waiting for them to come out while all the other fans were screaming... I don't think I even screamed a word during these 2 days... lol anyway!!
So we were waiting and waiting... Eli was being a dork and started dancing to 시끄러" you know the little dance break he does before he starts rapping? Yeah, that one. And then Eli back-hugged Kiseop and they had their own intimate session~~ Soohyun and Xander kept waving to the fans, and Kiseop kept taking his iPhone out to change songs (or maybe to show it off? ;D) Eli kept flicking his hair~~
Then Soohyun was scanning the fans again, then he saw me and my fanboard and he pointed at me/my fanboard with a very derp face (XD) so I was like "O_O!!! ?____?" And then Soohyun dragged Kiseop to where his previous spot was and pointed at my fanboard, and then Kiseop had this hugeeeeeeee grin, with teeth and all and smiled and waved at me~ I waved back and did a heart back and he did a heart back to me~ Hehehhehe, I died and just like T_______T *________* ^_________^ at the same time, lmfao. ♥
Their managers then asked them to come out and they came out, and they came out and I didn't even notice, I only noticed after coming home and re-watching the fancams that Soohyun looked at me/my friends/us again before walking off. Oh well, lol ~____~
My friends and I then lugged that huge-ass heavy box to Conrad hotel, because we thought the boys were staying there, and then we found out that they changed hotels and were staying at some country club which was about 40mins away from where we were. So we were all "URGHHHH WHY IS IT SO FARR T_____T" and eventually made our way there.
We had to climb up this looooooooooooooooong stretch of road that never seemed to end. Everyone was getting blisters, or at least I was and we were tried asking cars to stop and drive us up... but only one person stopped and told us "Oh the entrance is just up ahead!" and drove off even after trying to hint him 23947329 times whether he could send us up. It was like a freaking hill. Carrying a heavy bag + heavy box + blisters + crazy ass warm weather + climbing up a hill = not cool
But we eventually reached the resort and I was quite shocked to see quite some fans there. Manager and a few security guards were already there, so we went to where the fans were... waited for awhile and I heard from my friend while I was in the washroom that Xander came out but went back in /o\ Do you know who's Dandan? Dandan's Xander's nephew... but anyway, Dandan kept coming up and doing funny faces and made funny noises to the fans and we were all just like "awwww!! hello!" and waved to him and Dandan was being really cheeky and stuff.
Then one by one the boys started coming out, and they waved to us, and Kiseop was being an adorable lil boy and did a heart with his arms and twirled around, hahahaha. I guess he saw my fanboard? He half-pointed at me and waved at me. Eli was in a wifebeater and o m g :Q________________ Heheheheheh, the other boys came out and stoned outside the room, and the fans were quite considerate because they wern't screaming /that/ loud, but yeah, I kept quiet all the way, lol.
The boys suddenly started dancing to 2PM's "I'll be back".... =__= I think they were discussing about how to do the move correctly because they kept doing it and talking and laughing, hahahah. Then a group of fans shouted "UKISS HWAITING~" and Eli smiled and did the 'hwaiting' move with his hand/fist.
Waited at the lobby and Soohyun was being a weirdo and isolated himself from the group (AGAIN) to take time to look at the fans outside the lobby, lolol. Eli and Kiseop were playing with Dandan and omg I swear I could feel my legs turning into goo and my heart melting watching him play with Dandan, so freaking adorable!!!!! T__________T
So yeah, Soohyun being the fanservice king, waved at everyone while everyone else was somewhere else and talked to manager and stuff~ Then they came out yeah, my friend shook Kevin's hand Kiseop waved and smiled at me, then they went in the van to getch Kibum and Dongho, as well as rehearsals and dinner.
And then we were planning to go to Bedok Reservoir to wait for them and watch them reharse... but... I left my wallet in the restroom, and it was realy troublesome, we had to call the resort and ask them to check, but we decided to go up there ourselves and check and I found it.. and yeah it was alot of trouble.. (so sorry girls!) But I found it in the end T___T
We made our way to Bedok, but by the time we reached there, my friends said they just left so we were all T_________T NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~ Then we went home... My friend's grandpa sent me to the train station and yes, I was sweaty-sticky-smelly-gross and I had to take the train from one end of Singapore to the other end of Singapore because I was staying over at my friend's place. It was a 26-stop-ride which took about an hour and 10mins, and I had to stand all the way because I didn't want to trouble anyone with my huge-ass box...
Oh god, I swear my legs died because fucccckk I had blisters and I had to stand for 1hour and 10mins and have everyone look at me and my box and gossip and talk about me and give me weird looks. T____T Ahhh... the things I do for Lee Kiseop, lol.
By this time, my phone died because I had to check twitter for updates and urghhhh I couldn't contact my friend and I started to panick and stuff but I finally found her, ahahahh~ Went to her house, bathed, used twitter and stuff. I touched up on my notebook while my friend rushed her last-minute notebook for U-Kiss~
Then it was Goodnight~
Day #2: 101119
We woke up around 830AM and we bathed and stuff, did some last-minute touch-ups before going out and making our way to IMM! Took a really loooongg bus ride and when we reached IMM i was calling 93274932 people #likeaboss because they were supposed to meet me, lol. Waited outside DAISO for my tickets as well as my friends and stuff, and then we had to go down to the first floor to climb up 3 fucking storeys T___T It was so warm, the sun was so strong I felt like I could just die and melt under the heat.
Along the way, my friend was telling me taht there was a 'Gift Collection' table where we had to put all our presents there. I was devastated when I heard that, because honestly, 1/2 the gifts that you put in the 'Gift Collection Counter' will never reach the stars'. You must understand that I spent so much time, effort and money on my present I couldn't just dump my box at the Collection Table and assume Kiseop would confirm see it. I was so freaking sad and anxious and worried and scared I started crying and I shocked all of my friends. I called my friends and I was just bawling and crying and crying, thank god the other fangirls couldn't hear me because of the music they were blasting.
I have /totally/ thrown my face, my pride and my image away and shamelessly asked Shaun (@shaunchung) whether he could help me pass my present during the P Con. I am so embarrassed about that =___= I mean like, I'm not close to him at all, lol. I was really worried because I didn't know what to do and some fangirls were looking at me with a very worried look on their faces because I was crying. I think I shocked you girls,I'm so sorry!!! (again, you must understand how important this is to me~)
U-Kiss had already arrived at the venue when I still couldn't find someone who had a media pass and I told myself I must not, will not, CAN NOT leave my box at the Gift Collection Counter because it's untrustable. So, THANK THE GOOD LORD HEAVENS ALIBABA GENIE ANGEL EVERYONE THAT STEPH HAD A MEDIA PASS AND SHE SAID SHE WOULD TRY TO HELP ME PASS. I was crying and bawling and was being all anxious and when Steph said she would try to help me pass it to Kiseop, I was so so so so soooooo happy!!! ♥ ♥
So yeah, U-Kiss had already came out, everyone was happy and ecstatic and excited, I was just at the back, being worried and confirming stuff on my phone. I don't remember much from the fan-meet... I was too busy being worried and stuff, but anyway!!!
I rushed to the side to try to getback my box and then like the security uncle was really really hesitant, but DUNDUNDUN! I pulled my puppy-eye look and told him how important it was to me, and he finally let me take my box, heheheh! The guy at the counter (was kinda cute) was totally like "How many is there inside?" "1004~" "No way, I don't believe you." "I'm serious!! There's 1004 inside." "You're kidding! You're kidding me, right?" "Nah~ P:" I /kind-of/ wanted to talk to him for awhile more because he was cute and all but I was just like NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT AREA So I just walked off after replying him.
I remember Eli took off his blazer half-way and was being a tease by taking it off slowly and
showing off his muscles while the fans went wild. Saw some 'fans' play games with U-kiss... win stuff and shit, and then Kevin hugged a girl and the fangirls were all "T_____T I WANT TO HUG YOU TOO!" then Soohyun came to the front of the stage and air-hugged everyone, lmfao such a qt, ide.
Lol, the host then asked the boys what were their ideal types, and Eli being the flirt he is, said that every Kiss-me was his ideal girl. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW lmfao~ Then Kiseop said he likes tiny petite cute girls, and my friends were all going "KISEOP!!! LYNNN! LYNN!" O m f g embarrassing ttm I felt like hiding my face in a hole.... But I was just /indifferent expression/ /continues to check stuff and call people/ ahahahaha #becauseimgangster But yeah you girls!! It was so embarrassing, please don't do that anymore T_T Everyone was staring!!!
I can't remember much, I was on my phone most of the times, but a "fan" drinked from Xander's cup and yeah... they played games, won stuff OH OH I remembered Kibum and Kiseop were hugging each other when Kibum suddenly lifted Kiseop off the ground and Kiseop's face was a mixture of ">:OOO and O_______O" omg it was so qt I wanted to squish him or something, lol.
Oh, I think they were talking about something or they were ending the fanmeet already... I was smack-right in the middle which was directly infront of Kiseop, just that I was quite far back. I raised my fanboard, and he saw and went like /raises eyebrows/ and did a half-stretch and half-wave to me, so I waved back and everything ^___^
The fansign then started and people started going up on stage~ I ran around the area idk why, but I just did. Then I was like in the 2nd row, my friends started shouting "KISEOP! LYNN! CRANE! BOX!" O m g you guys T___T It was so embarrassing LOLOLOL I love you guys but next time don't do that okay? I appreciate everything, but I was so embarrassed, fangirls kept staring with a 'wtf?' face. But anyway, Kiseop eventually saw my board and he did that /raise eyebrows/ thing again and waved at me, and while I was waving, he did a small heart with his hands, and I was like ^____^ /does a heart back/ Heheheheh so happy because he initiated the heart!! My friends were like dying and they were so happy for me, lol. You girls are so cute~
So then, I ran around again then I ended up at the same place and just stared at Kiseop's b e a u t i f u l face and waited for him to notice me, and no, I did not even /try/ to get his attention lol because I'm cool like that B^D He saw me and smiled so I smiled at him and I blew a kiss to him and he blew a kiss back to me~ Hehehehhehe ^_________^ My friends then all circled me and did a group hug around me LOLOLOLOL YOU GIRLS ARE TOO CUTE For all you know, Kiseop saw them hugging me or something, lol.
The host then said something about if we wanted them to write our names, we'd have to write our name on a piece of paper. So I wrote on a tiny piece of paper (with horrible handwriting because my hand was shaking) " 진효영 " (Jin Hyo Yeong) and "lynn" on the flipside. We queued up to go up and when I was on stage I could see him raising his eyebrows AGAIN =_= and waving at me, so I gave him my album and my paper, and I didn't even say "annyeong" but he said hi~ It went kind of like this:
Me: /walking up to him/
Kiseop: /raises eyebrows/ Hello~
Me: /smiles and passes album with paper to him/
Kiseop: Ah~ /takes and signs/
Me: /stares at his g o r g e o u s face in silence/
Friend: KISEOP-AH!!!
Kiseop: Hmm? /looks at her/
Friend: CRANE!!! CRANE!! /does a crane pose/
Kiseop: ?__? Crane? O-ok!!!
Me: /silently wants to squish him, his confused face is too cute ;A;/
Kiseop: Kamsahaminda~ /gives back/
Me: High-five!!!
Kiseop: /high-fives me/ YEAHHHH~ ^____^
Me: /does a heart/
Kiseop: /extends his hand at the same time while I did a heart/
Me: /flustered, and scrambles to shake his head/
Kiseop: /laughs at me while shaking my hand and waves bye/
Yeah, nothing special, but his eyes are so pretty, partially because he was wearing coloured contacts but whatever lol. His eyes were so pretty, I think we had this moment where we just stared at each other's eyes without saying anything. *___* Also, he wrote on my album " To: 효영이~ ♥ " (Hyeoyeongie~♥ ) hehehhehe and as weird as this sounds, his hand is rougher compared to June HAHAHAH I sound like a creep, but it's true. And also, his hand is so huge compared to mine and warm~ It can literally wrap around my whole hand.. or maybe my hand is just small, lol /creepy/
So yeah, it ended, I was calm as fuck and I made my way to the Press Con to wait for U-Kiss/Steph. When Steph came she saw the box she was like O____________________O "woah." /o\ but she brought it in anyway, and then she texted me that the organizers didn't allow her to give it to them... and I was so fucking devastated I was just /stone/ "what do i do..." kind of feeling. While feeling sad as wkejheihges, we waited for U-Kiss and they were late by an hour because there was an accident along the way and that delayed them. I hope the people who were involved in the accident are safe and please stay strong!!
They came in, it was their press con, pretty sure Kiseop saw my fanboard... then yeah, it was about to end, I walked around the area like a loner, totally sad and stuff. Steph texted me that she was outside the P Con room and I told her to wait because I wanted to wait for the boys to come out first. But they were taking so long, I decided to just go meet Steph. Then I picked up my box.. walked around and then I stopped and called my friend telling her how I really don't want to go to the concert because I had no fucking mood and I was so so so so sad I was crying while talking to her.
Then Steph told me to wait up just as I was about to leave, and she told me that I might have a chance of giving Kiseop my box. I had totally just given up and was just like 'oh okay, take it then....' and I was talking to my friend still and just I didn't know what to do because I really had no mood and stuff, until I see my friend zoom into the room and come out of the room empty-handed and said "I PASSED IT TO HIM!" O M G I WAS SO DELIGHT WD OIERGHPESGIRSHEGOIUHS I was just like saying thankyou to her so many times I don't even know. It meant so so so much to me, I just *___* She said she managed to pass it to KISEOP HIMSELF O M G~~~~ So I was really happy and I thanked her and hugged her and had this happy ceremony when we made our way to the concert venue together.
I was so happy, i don't even. Steph said that when Kiseop saw it he was like "O_O WOAH" LMAOOOO my fatty boy <3 <3 *__________* And because it was given at the press con, I got happy just thinking about the fact that the boys were probably looking at it and looking at my notebook as well as Farah's fan-letters in the van. They might even have played a game on guessing how many cranes there were HAHAHAHAH IDK OKAY!! It made me so happy!! My gift was probably the only fangift they had with them then, and Kiseop probably opened it and read my notebook~ *________*
When I arrived at the concert venue, Steph told me that she mentioned my name, I was so happy I wanted to do a happy dance and roll on the floor right then but I had no more energy. I went in, and yeah we waited, and I was probably like the 3rd row from the stage... at 6PM I checked twitter and I saw Lynette's tweet "Saw seopseop carrying @_chiddle's box of cranes!" O M G I WAS JUST LIKE LIJERHGIOESURHGIURSHIUSUREOGOUIRSEH UI!!!!bIh BGILERBSIB IESBG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I started going high and happy and crazy and everyone around us was like "what happened?? o w o" OMG I WAS SO HAPPY I TELL YOU T_________T
But anyway, by around 615PM, it was so so suffocating I decided to just get out of that horrendous place. I could finally breathe~~~~~~~~~~~~~ So yeahhh time passed and I waited around the backstage/right side of the stage area. Then yeah, they came, saw them in fucking w h i t e s u i t s *___________* Kinda died because Kiseop was at my side, but he didn't look at me, I'm fine with that, lol.
Ran back in to watch them perform and yeahhhhhhh stood at the right side. If I remember correctly, during Bingeul Bingeul or Mworago, Kiseop had to stay at the right side and do a 'slowly-look-from-the-floor-to-the-ceiling' move, i don't know how to describe it, but I'm pretty sure he saw my board while doing that cause I was the only one with a Kiseop board there =_= but then he saw it and did a small little smile *____*
Yeah, they were performng and you could see the sweat literally flying everywhere. It was like it was raining.... it was kinda groce LOL Kevin's and SOohyun's especially ~__~ Kibum kept giving fanservice to our side of the stage and he is sooooooooo cute *_* Love him~ ♥
Yeah, then they were performing " ", Vern and I decided to slowly walk to the place near their backstage. We were waiting and waiting and apparently they were changing out of their costumes, into casual outfits. And because I was right infront of the barricades, I put my hand all the way out with my fanboard, and (THANK THE GOOD HEAVENS) Kiseop was on my side and he saw my fanboard. When he saw it, he turned his head with a ":o" and a "^__^" face combined, saw me and waved and then did a thumbs up at me with very strong emphasis, so I waved back at him with a "^o^" face and then he did the same and waved at me for the second time. ♥
So... if I think delusional-y.. Kiseop most probably saw my notebook, read my book, and did a thumbs up to me? Because in no where on my box does it show that I was the one who did it, only on the last page of the notebook which had a picture of me and my fanboard. So, if he really saw the whole of my notebook, and recognized me, means he read my note and in a small corner of my note, I wrote "If you see this, please take a picture with my cranes post it on twitter!" in Korean.... which means B^DDDD
My friends and I cabbed to the airport, we ended up seeing a little, Kiseop was being a qt and making cute faces and bouncing up and down~ Yeah, then it was goodbye p:
So yeah, right now I'm just hoping Kiseop really posts a picture. He might have, he might not have brought the cranes back to Korea, but I don't mind if he doesn't.. After all, it /is/ quite bulky. But really, just to have him know who made the cranes for him is all that matters to me. The fact that I managed to pass it to him personally makes me happy enough. ♥ ♥ ♥
Kiseop-ah, did you see my note? Will you really post it on twitter one day? I'm just hoping you will, because you have no idea how much I have sacrificied for you, and how much I have done for you. It's most probably the most I'll ever do for any guy, so please? I'm not going to keep my hopes high, I'm just silently wishing you would. I love you~ <3
Also, if you did not know, the lucky 'fans' who were picked to play games with U-Kiss were actually the company's own media, staff and stuff like that. They left 400++ Kiss Mes in confusion and sent their own people up on stage to play with U-Kiss, and they got to win U-Kiss' personal belongings.... They didn't know U-Kiss' songs or dances and I'm just disappointed in them so much.
Also, the 2 emcees who were hosting yesterday's concert were bashing U-Kiss on their twitters, calling them back-stabbers and calling them pretty boys who have no talents. It had definitely angered alot of Kiss-Mes and I was one of them. I hope they will take back on what they said because it is downright rude.
I didn't exactly get that much of interaction, but I'm just sososososososo happy because I'm pretty certain Kiseop saw my notebook and my fan-letter. :') A huge huge thanks to this whole group of people: Jamie, Emma, Mandy, Andria, Farah, Haleeda, Aiana, Anjila, Chloe, Steph, Vern, Dorothea, Yvonne, Siyuan and everyone else if I had forgot to mention you!! ♥ ♥ ♥