Life Plan
Dear Livejournal,
I have a new life plan. Sitting on the bus today, I got hit with a major, physical, blow of "I NEED AN OUT." These physical longings are usually for England. And having recently heard someone say they wanted to live in London, but never had, etc. etc. and dealing with my own fear that getting an apartment will mean getting stuck, I fought off the panic to make decisions.
1. I will finish off my program. I will get an apartment to get myself out of dorm hell. If something happens in here that takes me off the train, then fine. I'm not going to live each day dreaming of escape.
2. Next Fall I will apply for PhD. programs, some for the program (Kansas State, God help me) some location (NYC, Oxford) and others. I will indulge this maybe before it becomes a what-if.
3. I will defer. I will take a year to have the excess skin removals done on my arms and to apply for grant money. If nothing has changed from now, I will write this off as a bad job. If i'm going to that H school in Cambridge, I will work harder to restructure my social circles (NB I do not mean Boston fangirls. I love you all.Other friendships need work).
4. I will start somewhere different, preferably somewhere with British Accents and Weekend Trips to Paris.
OR I will meet some nerdy, hot, wealthy guy who wants to support me in the way I so desire. Taking applicants now.
I have a new life plan. Sitting on the bus today, I got hit with a major, physical, blow of "I NEED AN OUT." These physical longings are usually for England. And having recently heard someone say they wanted to live in London, but never had, etc. etc. and dealing with my own fear that getting an apartment will mean getting stuck, I fought off the panic to make decisions.
1. I will finish off my program. I will get an apartment to get myself out of dorm hell. If something happens in here that takes me off the train, then fine. I'm not going to live each day dreaming of escape.
2. Next Fall I will apply for PhD. programs, some for the program (Kansas State, God help me) some location (NYC, Oxford) and others. I will indulge this maybe before it becomes a what-if.
3. I will defer. I will take a year to have the excess skin removals done on my arms and to apply for grant money. If nothing has changed from now, I will write this off as a bad job. If i'm going to that H school in Cambridge, I will work harder to restructure my social circles (NB I do not mean Boston fangirls. I love you all.Other friendships need work).
4. I will start somewhere different, preferably somewhere with British Accents and Weekend Trips to Paris.
OR I will meet some nerdy, hot, wealthy guy who wants to support me in the way I so desire. Taking applicants now.