One of those days
I have moments where it's so painful I can't bare to draw breath, but this isn't one of those moments.
I have days where I'm so angry with him... and with any God that would let this happen to me that I could just scream. But this isn't one of those days, either.
There are times when I grieve so much for the loss of my family that I just sob uncontrollably at inopportune moments in in appropriate places... But I'm keeping those to a minimum.
Today, I'm reeling. He's less a man than I could ever have thought. He's not at all the person I loved. I never wanted this.
My mind is filled with fantasies of him coming home... Standing in the rain, begging my forgiveness... Holding me in his arms and promising to change. I keep praying for an Epiphany that will never come.
Keep praying for me. I need strength to maintain myself during this. I won't be one of those women who gets lost in her anger and pain. I won't let it change the good person that I am.
I have days where I'm so angry with him... and with any God that would let this happen to me that I could just scream. But this isn't one of those days, either.
There are times when I grieve so much for the loss of my family that I just sob uncontrollably at inopportune moments in in appropriate places... But I'm keeping those to a minimum.
Today, I'm reeling. He's less a man than I could ever have thought. He's not at all the person I loved. I never wanted this.
My mind is filled with fantasies of him coming home... Standing in the rain, begging my forgiveness... Holding me in his arms and promising to change. I keep praying for an Epiphany that will never come.
Keep praying for me. I need strength to maintain myself during this. I won't be one of those women who gets lost in her anger and pain. I won't let it change the good person that I am.