PHUCK
All rightttttyyyy...so what do you do when you fall for a friend...and all that falling has made you do is avoid him like the plague cause you HATE IT...and you just want things to be simple...and you JUST want to be the FRIEND that you know he WANTS to you to be...but he is SO amazing...and he has this heart and this mind and this beauty...and EVERYTHING is beautiful about him...and you can SEE yourself with this person.........more so than anyone else......................this is why i feel like giving up sometimes...whats the point...cause I will never have the balls to tell him...and that is mostly cause his friendship means too much to me to potentially ruin it...emily may want to kick my arse because of it...but that's the way it is...maybe someday i will be good enough for him...and maybe some day he will fall for me..."and waiting is all that i can do, until you find your way back to me." Yeah, so that was my random blubber...I just needed to write about it, because I am angry with myself and I have NO idea what to do because this is making me act like such a stupid person and such a bad friend...I will get over it...even if i have to MAKE myself