Randomn Musings...
When you're outside in the hot, hot sun and you are picking green beans, your mind tends to wander. This is going to basically be a large LJ of my wonderings...
-- I wonder what life would be like for me if I didn't have a lot of friends to lean on. If I was one of those loners that really just didn't have any friends. The kind that eat lunch by themselves and never leave their house. I can't say that life wouldn't be as much fun, because maybe that's what I would enjoy doing. I'm sure I would have had straight A's in high school if I had actually "tried" all the time and not just classes I enjoyed, I would read a lot more like I really used too, and I would probably spend every waking hour online looking up Star Wars facts (Sorry Tristan, I had to let everyone know you were a Star Wars geek somehow).
-- I wonder what it would have been like if I still played soccer. I positively wouldn't be friends with anyone I am now. I'm not friends with anyone I was then. Actually, Brittany and I were friends then. We're friends now. Haha, that must make Brittany a true friend?
-- I wonder why everyone strives for approval. I do it. You do it. The person sitting next to you does it. I understand it a bit more now. I understand why you don't want to tell someone something. It's the fear of disapproval or having the situation blown out of proportion. Misunderstandings are bad. You don't want to feel like a disappointment. I know I don't. That's one of the worst feelings in the world and even worse when it's said to your face.
-- I wonder why some TV channels advertise for other TV channels. I mean, if they aren't watching your channel, they're watching someone else's. Why encourage the public to watch someone else? Bah.
-- I wonder why you don't notice a lot of blantantly obvious things until they are over. Things that happen "discreetly" yet with hindsight, you should have seen it. I can feel the distance between myself and individuals growing. The silence that you sit in while you're together because you just don't have anything else to talk about. Does that mean you are both growing as people or you just don't relate to eachother how you used too?
-- I wonder why I love starbursts so much?
-- I wonder why Juliana seems to be the only person that I can tell anything to without being/feeling judged. I don't know why, but she understands this. We both run for the other when we need some time away. Who knows why? As she put it, "I'm in total clumpette-therapy need! It's wierd, you and I very rarely hang out, much less talk to each other, but when things start to get overwhelming or too intense I just feel right going to Celia. I work well with you. Better than most others." With her and I, it seems as though time doesn't pass and make us feel like strangers. It's always exciting to see eachother and we feel revitalized afterwards. It must be a clumpette-music-Ewan-movies-Ross connection kinda thing. Who knows?
-- I wonder why despite the constant pleas for attention, many people aren't lavished with it. In example, "We should all get together." It never happens. We all don't get together (yes nice grammar).
-- I wonder why on TV shows, a character named Celia is always a freak. On Friends, she was the "Bug Lady," on Everybody Loves Raymond, she was the "Frog Lady," and now on Seinfeld, she's the convicted felon that George is dating. Wow.
That's about all for now. Maybe the name Celia is just automatically associated with freak. That's awesome.
Also, I had an awesome weekend! Don't ask and don't tell.
-- I wonder what life would be like for me if I didn't have a lot of friends to lean on. If I was one of those loners that really just didn't have any friends. The kind that eat lunch by themselves and never leave their house. I can't say that life wouldn't be as much fun, because maybe that's what I would enjoy doing. I'm sure I would have had straight A's in high school if I had actually "tried" all the time and not just classes I enjoyed, I would read a lot more like I really used too, and I would probably spend every waking hour online looking up Star Wars facts (Sorry Tristan, I had to let everyone know you were a Star Wars geek somehow).
-- I wonder what it would have been like if I still played soccer. I positively wouldn't be friends with anyone I am now. I'm not friends with anyone I was then. Actually, Brittany and I were friends then. We're friends now. Haha, that must make Brittany a true friend?
-- I wonder why everyone strives for approval. I do it. You do it. The person sitting next to you does it. I understand it a bit more now. I understand why you don't want to tell someone something. It's the fear of disapproval or having the situation blown out of proportion. Misunderstandings are bad. You don't want to feel like a disappointment. I know I don't. That's one of the worst feelings in the world and even worse when it's said to your face.
-- I wonder why some TV channels advertise for other TV channels. I mean, if they aren't watching your channel, they're watching someone else's. Why encourage the public to watch someone else? Bah.
-- I wonder why you don't notice a lot of blantantly obvious things until they are over. Things that happen "discreetly" yet with hindsight, you should have seen it. I can feel the distance between myself and individuals growing. The silence that you sit in while you're together because you just don't have anything else to talk about. Does that mean you are both growing as people or you just don't relate to eachother how you used too?
-- I wonder why I love starbursts so much?
-- I wonder why Juliana seems to be the only person that I can tell anything to without being/feeling judged. I don't know why, but she understands this. We both run for the other when we need some time away. Who knows why? As she put it, "I'm in total clumpette-therapy need! It's wierd, you and I very rarely hang out, much less talk to each other, but when things start to get overwhelming or too intense I just feel right going to Celia. I work well with you. Better than most others." With her and I, it seems as though time doesn't pass and make us feel like strangers. It's always exciting to see eachother and we feel revitalized afterwards. It must be a clumpette-music-Ewan-movies-Ross connection kinda thing. Who knows?
-- I wonder why despite the constant pleas for attention, many people aren't lavished with it. In example, "We should all get together." It never happens. We all don't get together (yes nice grammar).
-- I wonder why on TV shows, a character named Celia is always a freak. On Friends, she was the "Bug Lady," on Everybody Loves Raymond, she was the "Frog Lady," and now on Seinfeld, she's the convicted felon that George is dating. Wow.
That's about all for now. Maybe the name Celia is just automatically associated with freak. That's awesome.
Also, I had an awesome weekend! Don't ask and don't tell.