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My journla is bullshit, so you prolly wont be reading this right?
Theres no hidden agenda here. THis is directed directly at Vidula. I cant believe you would intentionally go out and attempt to destroy what i ever had at thunderbird. I absolutely DO NOT ever want your "friendship" ever again. I dont hate you, but there is not a single fiber in my body that ever wants to have any sort of companionship with you ever again. For someone who says they were "one of the best friends i had", you are an incredibly SHITTY friend as well.
DO NOT try and tear me apart from Grant. DO NOT pull me away from Ashley. DO NOT hurt my relationship with Anna.
Anyone who is folowing my journal would kno. That was an excerpt from a single entry. And yes, i never had the type of friends i had now. I loved all my thunderbird friends, and i still do. BUT as much as youthink you were, none of you were there for me when i needed you themost. Yes, it was my fault too because i never felt right about letting any of you in. So many people have said that theyknew something was gonig on, but if you were there for me why didnt anyone say anything. When i was in the hospital why did no one call other than Amanda and Ashley? They actually came to visit me once i was back at home. You say you cared about me, but I felt like i was an outsider looking into these friendships that i could never really be a part of.
At Pinnacle, i do feel better. Ifeel better about myself. Ihave new friensd, and new set of rules, where anything goes. Although i cared about each of you, now i have a person who I completely feel comfortable around. Idont have to put up some weird act. Idont have to be perfect for them. I dont haev to maintain some weird sterotype in order to not feel weird. Each morning i wake up, and i dont want to go to school. I wake up because i want to see them. I dont feel right if i go to school without gettin g a hug from them. I have someone who i can talk to at 4AM without feeling weird. They express openly the fact that they love me, and i have never felt so loved.
At Tbird i always felt like dog in the middle of a pack of wolves. Youall seemed better than me. Everyone knew me because i stood out. You treated me right, and i cared about you, but i never actually felt like one of you.
If you haev a problem with me. Try talking. Do not accuse meo f being a terrible human being and then proceeding to tell it to the world. So many people are giving "their opinions" on the subject without knowing the details. How many times have ANY of you called me once? Everyone who i have ever hung out wiht Tbird i have called at least once this semester, but i have yet to recieve a single one except for the people who apparently are "still my friend."
Im Neil Nguyen, Pinnacle Pioneer now. Tbird is a part of me, but it isnt ME anymore. Im not "full of myself", im just happy. Thunderbird never did that for me. Yes, the few of you there made it bearable to the point where i didnt kill myself, but i was never as happy as i am now.
So thats it. Take it as you will. If your pissed at me, id rather not hear about it. Just replyonce, say you never want to talk to me again, and I wont.
Theres no hidden agenda here. THis is directed directly at Vidula. I cant believe you would intentionally go out and attempt to destroy what i ever had at thunderbird. I absolutely DO NOT ever want your "friendship" ever again. I dont hate you, but there is not a single fiber in my body that ever wants to have any sort of companionship with you ever again. For someone who says they were "one of the best friends i had", you are an incredibly SHITTY friend as well.
DO NOT try and tear me apart from Grant. DO NOT pull me away from Ashley. DO NOT hurt my relationship with Anna.
Anyone who is folowing my journal would kno. That was an excerpt from a single entry. And yes, i never had the type of friends i had now. I loved all my thunderbird friends, and i still do. BUT as much as youthink you were, none of you were there for me when i needed you themost. Yes, it was my fault too because i never felt right about letting any of you in. So many people have said that theyknew something was gonig on, but if you were there for me why didnt anyone say anything. When i was in the hospital why did no one call other than Amanda and Ashley? They actually came to visit me once i was back at home. You say you cared about me, but I felt like i was an outsider looking into these friendships that i could never really be a part of.
At Pinnacle, i do feel better. Ifeel better about myself. Ihave new friensd, and new set of rules, where anything goes. Although i cared about each of you, now i have a person who I completely feel comfortable around. Idont have to put up some weird act. Idont have to be perfect for them. I dont haev to maintain some weird sterotype in order to not feel weird. Each morning i wake up, and i dont want to go to school. I wake up because i want to see them. I dont feel right if i go to school without gettin g a hug from them. I have someone who i can talk to at 4AM without feeling weird. They express openly the fact that they love me, and i have never felt so loved.
At Tbird i always felt like dog in the middle of a pack of wolves. Youall seemed better than me. Everyone knew me because i stood out. You treated me right, and i cared about you, but i never actually felt like one of you.
If you haev a problem with me. Try talking. Do not accuse meo f being a terrible human being and then proceeding to tell it to the world. So many people are giving "their opinions" on the subject without knowing the details. How many times have ANY of you called me once? Everyone who i have ever hung out wiht Tbird i have called at least once this semester, but i have yet to recieve a single one except for the people who apparently are "still my friend."
Im Neil Nguyen, Pinnacle Pioneer now. Tbird is a part of me, but it isnt ME anymore. Im not "full of myself", im just happy. Thunderbird never did that for me. Yes, the few of you there made it bearable to the point where i didnt kill myself, but i was never as happy as i am now.
So thats it. Take it as you will. If your pissed at me, id rather not hear about it. Just replyonce, say you never want to talk to me again, and I wont.