yippie.... finally finding some time to update...
yesterday was christmas and it went suprisingly well and i got an email from someone that i haven't talked to in a long time so that's pretty cool. so yeah i got a camera and a bunch of clothes which i actually needed some new clothes so i think i got a lot of good stuff.
now comes my time to whine about how i'm all lonely and shit even though i've got a group of good people around me. yes they're good people, but that doesn't mean that they're giving me the nurturing i need and i know that sounds greedy but i've never been a greedy person in my life and now i've got councelors telling me that i should get what i need in return for giving everyone else what they've needed all these years. but how do i go from being someone who gives to being someone who receives??
emotionally and sometimes physically i'm lonely. i guess i just got used to having someone to hold me when i was sad and now that i don't have that i keep it all locked up inside and let it depress me to the point where i go through a breakthrough anxiety attack or end up hurting myself...and yes it's happened more than i'd like to admit but it happens....
now comes my time to whine about how i'm all lonely and shit even though i've got a group of good people around me. yes they're good people, but that doesn't mean that they're giving me the nurturing i need and i know that sounds greedy but i've never been a greedy person in my life and now i've got councelors telling me that i should get what i need in return for giving everyone else what they've needed all these years. but how do i go from being someone who gives to being someone who receives??
emotionally and sometimes physically i'm lonely. i guess i just got used to having someone to hold me when i was sad and now that i don't have that i keep it all locked up inside and let it depress me to the point where i go through a breakthrough anxiety attack or end up hurting myself...and yes it's happened more than i'd like to admit but it happens....