just thinking...

[chickenlittle06]

now that i'm a senior i have to make a few decisions as to what i'm going to do with my life after fillmore central school. so far i have two choices, stay with my family in NY and go to GCC or move to colorado get a job (which i've basically already got all lined up anyway) then the following year start college at CCD. i can't seem to make up my mind anymore. at first i was so set on moving but now when i think about it my stomach turns and i realize that my parents were right about me moving out before tommy (who is going to be 21 in a few months). i don't want them to be right in a way because this is all i've ever known. i've never gone anywhere without my parents for more than a month. but then i think about that and i tell myself that i need to leave, i need to experience the world for myself, i need a new setting, and i certainly need a fresh start.
i sometimes think that if i go i'll be letting a lot of people down...idk..i need to get myself figured out