Hmm.
I know its been a while since I wrote, I havent really been up to it..Today was kind of a slap in the face..Ive learned alot about myself In the past week..Im really fucked up! Me and matt were engaged for about 2 months then he fucked one of my so called "best friends" who knew we were together but fucked him anyways...And the most fucked up thing about it is me and her girlfriend are friends and chelsea(her girl) really loves her..
But you know lifes a bitch and then you die..love isnt real..It never has been all those things you dream about the perfect man/women (for my fav girls out there sara, casey, jaime)
that isnt real...the first kiss is just a image of what u think you want then you spend your whole life chasing after that perfect person..but is there really a perfect person for everyone out there? Is there really that thing they call "call" does it actually exsist? I dont believe in it anymore..why is ther divorce and one night stands to prepare you for love...I think not ..Its just not real...Love is just an obstacle that prevents u from seeing the real reason you were put on this earth to reproduce and excede your purpose..If you ask me LOVE IS BULLSHIT!
Anyways, I think my perspective on life has changed dramatically
Ive changed ....My eyes our open now..
Today I went to target with jen and torie I think torie and i broke a record for smokin a cigg in under 30 seconds! hooray for us ;) We also stopped at the mall torie fell up the stairs..It was fuckin hilarious!! We saw a picture of dexter and all signed it ..I miss him so much I hope he is okay...So my nana had her surgery today , the other night she got drunk with my parents and she was sayin all this shit like "if I dont make it"
I didnt even know about the surgery until about a week ago. which is also bullshit I should have known when they found out but for some odd reason they wanted to keep it from me ..rawr! I havent heard from her yet so Im not sure how it went...:(
The other day I tried to kill torie..I dont know why I just flew off the handle..but I was mad before I came home that day too because this fat kid darren who is a friend of bobby's and I was at genas and bobby lives right above gena so we chill alot..gena got into her bathing suit and she was lookin damn fine (whistle) thats besides the point this kid darren who is 10 times bigger than me looks at me and says damn baby go put your bathing suit on ...and I tackeled him and started beatin the shit out of him...then bobby pulled me off and darren was cryin (haha you fat fuck you deserved it you pig) then after I tried to kill torie my dad almost chocked me to death...well theres that in a nutshell...Im gettin a bit tired I will finish up tomorrow
night night
But you know lifes a bitch and then you die..love isnt real..It never has been all those things you dream about the perfect man/women (for my fav girls out there sara, casey, jaime)
that isnt real...the first kiss is just a image of what u think you want then you spend your whole life chasing after that perfect person..but is there really a perfect person for everyone out there? Is there really that thing they call "call" does it actually exsist? I dont believe in it anymore..why is ther divorce and one night stands to prepare you for love...I think not ..Its just not real...Love is just an obstacle that prevents u from seeing the real reason you were put on this earth to reproduce and excede your purpose..If you ask me LOVE IS BULLSHIT!
Anyways, I think my perspective on life has changed dramatically
Ive changed ....My eyes our open now..
Today I went to target with jen and torie I think torie and i broke a record for smokin a cigg in under 30 seconds! hooray for us ;) We also stopped at the mall torie fell up the stairs..It was fuckin hilarious!! We saw a picture of dexter and all signed it ..I miss him so much I hope he is okay...So my nana had her surgery today , the other night she got drunk with my parents and she was sayin all this shit like "if I dont make it"
I didnt even know about the surgery until about a week ago. which is also bullshit I should have known when they found out but for some odd reason they wanted to keep it from me ..rawr! I havent heard from her yet so Im not sure how it went...:(
The other day I tried to kill torie..I dont know why I just flew off the handle..but I was mad before I came home that day too because this fat kid darren who is a friend of bobby's and I was at genas and bobby lives right above gena so we chill alot..gena got into her bathing suit and she was lookin damn fine (whistle) thats besides the point this kid darren who is 10 times bigger than me looks at me and says damn baby go put your bathing suit on ...and I tackeled him and started beatin the shit out of him...then bobby pulled me off and darren was cryin (haha you fat fuck you deserved it you pig) then after I tried to kill torie my dad almost chocked me to death...well theres that in a nutshell...Im gettin a bit tired I will finish up tomorrow
night night