Hello
Okay, so I am sorry for those that read my lj entry and took it like I was mad at those who are tlkaign about love, What I meant what that I was sick of hearing and thinking about how much I deserve that and I wa skind of jealous. SO that all. Now for the news
I .. Laura Moran... got my very new awesome ears AND my mother approves.
Now that might not be big news but it is for me, my mother hates those hearings aids, becuase she feels like she failed me by me being born with a hearing lose. ALso becuase of my childhood, she is scared that there is mean people out there that will not get to know me becuase of my ears. She knows I ma strong, she just portective. But she likes them and even smiled at them.
This whole new outlook for me is going good, I now can complain about being scared and taking riks, becuase I just need to relax and get over myself to move on. Too many bad relationships for me. I want to be happy with myself and I am. This does not mean that I have given up on boys just beign happy with what I have. It also does not mean that I do not what love, I want love. JUst why do I need to have it to feel full and wgole and carrie at points loves just dating an dhanging out with her friends thank you that is her family thats the whole idea of sex in the city thank you. She is proud women, that what I want. I been single my whole life but always just wanting to have that something that some one, and I put walls up becuase I been hurt bad so right now I just need to learn to put the walls down and not be scared of relationshipd, and love.
Anywyas for something new, I think I might have made a little break through with my brothers girlfriend. Still a little weird but I think it needs time thats all, and I backed off a little with my talking to make it more open and less scaery maybe. Meh I donno but i ma trying he likes her, I need to give her a chance.
I .. Laura Moran... got my very new awesome ears AND my mother approves.
Now that might not be big news but it is for me, my mother hates those hearings aids, becuase she feels like she failed me by me being born with a hearing lose. ALso becuase of my childhood, she is scared that there is mean people out there that will not get to know me becuase of my ears. She knows I ma strong, she just portective. But she likes them and even smiled at them.
This whole new outlook for me is going good, I now can complain about being scared and taking riks, becuase I just need to relax and get over myself to move on. Too many bad relationships for me. I want to be happy with myself and I am. This does not mean that I have given up on boys just beign happy with what I have. It also does not mean that I do not what love, I want love. JUst why do I need to have it to feel full and wgole and carrie at points loves just dating an dhanging out with her friends thank you that is her family thats the whole idea of sex in the city thank you. She is proud women, that what I want. I been single my whole life but always just wanting to have that something that some one, and I put walls up becuase I been hurt bad so right now I just need to learn to put the walls down and not be scared of relationshipd, and love.
Anywyas for something new, I think I might have made a little break through with my brothers girlfriend. Still a little weird but I think it needs time thats all, and I backed off a little with my talking to make it more open and less scaery maybe. Meh I donno but i ma trying he likes her, I need to give her a chance.