disappointment
i hate being disappointed... in people, in myself...
But I am.
I'm disappointed that most of the guys I know are the way they are, which is immature and stupid. I'm disappointed that friends don't relaize when they're not treating their friend in the right way, or are hurting others. I'm disappointed that I'm actually writing this, even thinking about this mindless bullshit when I obviously have other shit to do. I'm disappointed in myself for not being the type of adapting, accomodating person that people can instantly feel comfortable with.. although it's not really my fault, it's just the way I've been shaped because of my experiences, and who I am. I'm disappointed that I expect so much, and get let down so much.
On the other hand... I'm soooo happy for my sister :). We have our ups and downs, but I don't think I could imagine life with anyone else but her. She may not understand me because she has much of what I don't, but... at least she cares.
But I am.
I'm disappointed that most of the guys I know are the way they are, which is immature and stupid. I'm disappointed that friends don't relaize when they're not treating their friend in the right way, or are hurting others. I'm disappointed that I'm actually writing this, even thinking about this mindless bullshit when I obviously have other shit to do. I'm disappointed in myself for not being the type of adapting, accomodating person that people can instantly feel comfortable with.. although it's not really my fault, it's just the way I've been shaped because of my experiences, and who I am. I'm disappointed that I expect so much, and get let down so much.
On the other hand... I'm soooo happy for my sister :). We have our ups and downs, but I don't think I could imagine life with anyone else but her. She may not understand me because she has much of what I don't, but... at least she cares.