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Well... haven't written in a long time. Not so sure that LJ is used much anymore, at least not amongst my peers.
So. A lot of change has happened. I never really thought about it, but I do realize that my mom's passing has effected not just my family but also other families. I'm going to have to move now. I'll really miss Pasadena, but change is necessary now. I don't think I can live with my father. He's practically a stranger to me... I know his temper well (which is very violent and rash) and I can almost predict how life'll be living with him. He will go nuts after realizing how much my mom had to put up with us kids to raise us. He will become an alcoholic (this I know for sure) and he'll probably end up getting us kids taken away by social security.
I don't know anymore. I really can't stand the idea of living with a man who is my rightful, biological father, of whom never gave a rat's ass about my mom, who practically spat in my mom's ashesl; who abused and mistreated my mom; who almost killed my uncle; who got away with having 2 daughters by the age of 15 and never had anyone hold him accountable for those 2 incidents...
The list could go on.
I'm so sick and tired of that man. I am sorry to say, but my father was never and should never be a father. That's just that.
Mom, I don't know how you did it all these years, to take dad's crap and continue to live your life out to make us kids comfortable. I am honestly so blessed to have known a woman like her in my life to help shape me into who I am today. Her lessons will remain with me for forever.
Life is so different now...
So. A lot of change has happened. I never really thought about it, but I do realize that my mom's passing has effected not just my family but also other families. I'm going to have to move now. I'll really miss Pasadena, but change is necessary now. I don't think I can live with my father. He's practically a stranger to me... I know his temper well (which is very violent and rash) and I can almost predict how life'll be living with him. He will go nuts after realizing how much my mom had to put up with us kids to raise us. He will become an alcoholic (this I know for sure) and he'll probably end up getting us kids taken away by social security.
I don't know anymore. I really can't stand the idea of living with a man who is my rightful, biological father, of whom never gave a rat's ass about my mom, who practically spat in my mom's ashesl; who abused and mistreated my mom; who almost killed my uncle; who got away with having 2 daughters by the age of 15 and never had anyone hold him accountable for those 2 incidents...
The list could go on.
I'm so sick and tired of that man. I am sorry to say, but my father was never and should never be a father. That's just that.
Mom, I don't know how you did it all these years, to take dad's crap and continue to live your life out to make us kids comfortable. I am honestly so blessed to have known a woman like her in my life to help shape me into who I am today. Her lessons will remain with me for forever.
Life is so different now...