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So. It’s been a while since I really updated. This place is dead, but I am going to update. It may be long, it may be short, whatever.
Work:
Work is going really well. I am bang on my target and if I keep going at this pace I will blow it out of the water come end of March. I am also part of the Northern Mentorship Program for aspiring managers where they pair you with a manager who mentors you. I got paired with a Director in MNRF and he’s been pretty spectacular thus far. He’s easy to talk to and has inspired me to kick myself in the ass once in a while and work harder and take some risks where my career is concerned.
I discovered that what I am really interested in is HR - change management and succession planning. It may mean that I have to move out of SSM or leave the government for a BPS agency like the hospital or something. I am bound and determined that by the end of my career I will be on the Sunshine list.
House hunting:
This is on hold until the spring. Not only is there nothing out there that interests me, but I will not buy a house or property in the winter ever again. There is also some work that needs to be done on my house before I sell it. We found this product that we can use to fix the leak in the foundation from the inside, so that is awesome. Just have to order it and actually do it.
I am still looking for property in Echo Bay. I don’t’ think I want to go the Goulais route. Maaaybe out by Airport road, but not sure. The only thing Goulais has going for it is super cheap taxes.
Mom:
Mom seems to be doing well. Her memory is slowing getting worse, but it’s very gradual. It’s mostly short term that sucks. Her Long term is good. She is still making long term memories. She may not remember something I tell her today tomorrow, but two weeks from now she will remember it. It’s weird. I end up looking at her going WTF?? a lot. She loves Pathways. I’m not so convinced it’s all that great, but she is happy and doesn’t want to leave so that is all that matters. I do have to admit that the staff are really good with her, so I can’t complain about that.
Nov 26th marks 5 years since my father passed away so I am thinking that if there isn’t all that much snow on the ground that I may bring her to Elliot Lake to visit and I want to go see my dad. It’s a Saturday so that works out well.
Health:
Well my health is what it is. Hashimoto’s has cause rosacea (joy!) for which I have a prescription cream for. Makes washing my face a process both morning and night. I have to wash my face with a gentle cleanser, let it air dry, apply the medicated cream, let it dry and then apply my moisturizer, let it dry then I can finally put my freaking glasses back on. UGH. HATE IT. Hashimoto’s has also caused psoriasis on my legs and feet so there’s a cream for that. JOY. I wash my hands what feels like 2 dozen times when getting ready in the morning or getting ready for bed. To help with the redness of my face and to help the cells heal I am not supposed to have caffeine, alcohol, hot beverages, hot showers, over exert myself, or basically do anything. So annoying.
I can’t wait to see Dr. Mace in Feb and get these allergies all sorted out. I am so done with it all.
My hand is killing me again, in a different way. There is a hard bump beside the scar from my surgery but it doesn’t feel like scar tissue and it is TENDER. There is also reduced sensation all around it. I can’t lift even a coffee cup right now or I get shooting pain in my wrist. Even bending my hand back hurts like crazy. GUH. I had like 2 months of awesome “My hand/wrist is back to normal!!!” and now look. This is very frustrating.
My left hand has started waking me up at night. I am not impressed with this development. I think it’s because I am using it a lot more again. I have left a message with my NP so we will see what she has to say. There is no way I am doing anything about this other hand until Feb at the earliest, April would be better. Let Nat do all the planting lol.
Pets:
Dief is doing well. He has a fatty lump thing about the size of a toonie on his back. Typical of labs his age. I will get Dr. Beduhn to look at it at his appointment next month. I noticed it a few months ago and it hasn’t changed, so I am not too worried about it. He is doing great otherwise. He got a bath the other day and he is soooo good. Just stands there and chills while I scrub away. He may not be the smartest or bravest or like people but I can do whatever I want with him. So can the vet. They don’t even muzzle him to do things with him. They say he’s the best for taking x-rays. He LOVES getting his nails cut. I can to them sitting, laying down, standing up - he doesn’t care. He is my boy.
I really miss Pheobe. The other day I went into my room to throw a bunch of clean clothes on my bed and double checked to make sure she wasn’t laying in her spot on my bed so I didn’t hit her with them. I miss my baby girl. I think it’s going to be a long time before I get another cat.
Shadow. Sigh. My Bug. My heart and soul. I had Roseann out to look at him and had a good chat with her. She says he looks good. And for 33, he does. I don’t know what to do. Karen put Joe down because he was starting to go down hill a bit and she didn’t want something bad to happen in the winter when things are so much harder to deal with. She wanted him to go out without suffering and go out while the going was good. I don’t know. Shadow is on meds to help with arthritis and so much food he should be a blimp. There is a risk of his liver/kidneys shutting down, or him foundering because of the grain he is on. The vet says it’s minimal, but it’s still there. My hiccough is that he is back to being the old Shadow - full of life, cheeky and ornery. I’m still on the fence. Part of it is because if I do put him down Mikey is all alone cuz him and Heist/Jazzi don’t’ get along so they can’t be put together. Sigh. I know that isn’t really my problem, but I would still feel bad. I am going to talk to Karen tonight or Thursday and make my decision by Friday.
Roseann had a good point - she said it sounds like I am waiting for something bad to happen to make the decision for me, for example if he colics then it is a no brainer for me - he will have to be put down. I feel like I am robbing him of time, but she said that he has had 33 years of good life. I am not robbing him of anything. He has been very much loved for the last 22 years, very well taken care of and happy. I don’t’ have to feel guilty if I put him down or if I wait. There is no right or wrong answer and I think that’s what drives me nuts. I hate ambiguity.
Weight loss:
I am part of a group at work that wants to lose weight. We are all summer babies and are going to try to lose our age in pounds by our birthday. I am not holding my breath, but it could be fun and gives me some motivation. I have roughly 36 weeks until my birthday so that means I have to lost a pound a week…oiy. I will give it a shot.
Life:
Is pretty okay right now. Not going to complain. Especially since most Tim Hortons still carry apple cider.