the soft dive of oblivion.
hm.
so sick of emo entries.
so lets move on, shall we?
yesterday was good fun, i went home with laancey, evan, morgane, ed, and bert. we watched the grudge, which i was expecting to pee in my pants during but ended up asking a bunch of questions and talking and laughing during it (sorry guys) so it really wasnt that bad. when i watch movies with...certain people....i tend to get side tracked, haha. anyway, it was fun. then we played on lances guitars, evan and i danced to hotel california (heh), and then we all ate subs (yessssss jersey mikes!)
after that, i rode in roberts car to his house.
OH MAN!
thats when the party really got started.
heh heh.
we all decided to go to the pier to meet up with some people. it was fun. i wanted to go swimming, so all of a sudden robert and i were like "WERE GOING IN." so we told evan to go with us and we all ran into the freeeeeeeeezing cold water, with them in their boxers and me in my WHITE SKIRT, WHITE thong, and tank top. haha that was awesome. bert and i threw sand at each other and jumped in the waves. then i got this bright idea to go pansy streaking along the beach (i.e streaking in my undies) that was HOTT i think everyone has now officially seen my ass. ohhhhhhhh well. and robert got to see my BOOBIES! haha.
then we piled in the car and went back to berts.
i rinsed off and borrowed berts clothes and that was fun, ive never really worn guy boxers before...
so then we decided to walk down to bert's beach, that was sooo cuuuuuuuute
we all layed there in the sand and huddled for warmth (CUDDLE BUNNIES!) and yeah.........then it got emo.
i dont actually know what to say, except that the three words "i dont care" can be taken so many ways.
i never really knew how it was untill he gave me his jacket and then i watched him stare up at the stars alone and cold.
looking back at it, last night was a lot of fun. but it really made me open my eyes to a lot of things. i cant begin to describe it, something like self-loathing. it occurred to me that i never really did deserve him. i dont think he knows that he will always be better than me.
and it was then that i realized letting him go was the best compensation for any debt i owed him.
yeah.
i think its time for me to leave.
cate
so sick of emo entries.
so lets move on, shall we?
yesterday was good fun, i went home with laancey, evan, morgane, ed, and bert. we watched the grudge, which i was expecting to pee in my pants during but ended up asking a bunch of questions and talking and laughing during it (sorry guys) so it really wasnt that bad. when i watch movies with...certain people....i tend to get side tracked, haha. anyway, it was fun. then we played on lances guitars, evan and i danced to hotel california (heh), and then we all ate subs (yessssss jersey mikes!)
after that, i rode in roberts car to his house.
OH MAN!
thats when the party really got started.
heh heh.
we all decided to go to the pier to meet up with some people. it was fun. i wanted to go swimming, so all of a sudden robert and i were like "WERE GOING IN." so we told evan to go with us and we all ran into the freeeeeeeeezing cold water, with them in their boxers and me in my WHITE SKIRT, WHITE thong, and tank top. haha that was awesome. bert and i threw sand at each other and jumped in the waves. then i got this bright idea to go pansy streaking along the beach (i.e streaking in my undies) that was HOTT i think everyone has now officially seen my ass. ohhhhhhhh well. and robert got to see my BOOBIES! haha.
then we piled in the car and went back to berts.
i rinsed off and borrowed berts clothes and that was fun, ive never really worn guy boxers before...
so then we decided to walk down to bert's beach, that was sooo cuuuuuuuute
we all layed there in the sand and huddled for warmth (CUDDLE BUNNIES!) and yeah.........then it got emo.
i dont actually know what to say, except that the three words "i dont care" can be taken so many ways.
i never really knew how it was untill he gave me his jacket and then i watched him stare up at the stars alone and cold.
looking back at it, last night was a lot of fun. but it really made me open my eyes to a lot of things. i cant begin to describe it, something like self-loathing. it occurred to me that i never really did deserve him. i dont think he knows that he will always be better than me.
and it was then that i realized letting him go was the best compensation for any debt i owed him.
yeah.
i think its time for me to leave.
cate