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I hope today is better than yesterday. I kinda felt like shit all last night. Megan and I had a little talk about what I do when she goes spens time with her friends. And IT SUCKED!! Because It made me even realize what I do. I stay home all by myself most of the time and I feel lonely and shit like that. That's a little bit of the reason I get kinda "sad" about her leaving early or just spending all day with her friends. The other chunk of it is because I love her and always wanna be with her. I just stayed awake til about midnight last night trying to sleep but not being able to because of too much shit on my mind. I think I just miss my best buddy Josh. All those times we hung out and ate $1 McChicken's and went to Dairy Queen. Maybe him being gone is what kills me the most. Because if he was here still I'd have the perfect life. A smart, athletic, funny girl with the most beautiful eyes and just downright HOT along with the best smile ever as my girlfriend. And then a best friend that KNOWS ME, A friend that I can hang out with when I want to. But I guess not everything is perfect...well except for Megan.