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My arthritis is flaring up. This sucks for a billion reasons -- I can barely (and I mean barely) walk because my right ankle is so swollen and painful, and I'll likely have to start Remicade because of this (and I really don't want to.) There's also something going on with my back but because it's mostly just the muscles tensing/cramping randomly, I'm holding onto a tiny sliver of hope that my arthritis hasn't spread beyond my legs.
Anyways. The ankle. I had to go get a pair of crutches today because walking around is so difficult right now. I can do it if I absolutely have to, but it hurts so bad and is so slow and tedious. I don't mind the crutches as such because they make the ankle hurt less, but everything else... I couldn't get a door open today when leaving class. People in the streets and the buses actually stared at me like they'd never seen a girl with crutches before. Most of the busdrivers would not lower the door-side of the vehicle for easier entrance/exit, like they should.
Those are all minor things, though; I need to hit the grocery store and I have no idea how to do it. I can't carry a shopping basket with the crutches, nor can I drag one of those floor models behind me. I might be able to use a shopping cart if I only use one crutch, but I feel awkward and embarrassed just thinking about that huge cart "filled" with the handful of things I actually need -- though witht he Easter holidays coming, I actually need a lot more stuff since everything is closed from Friday to Monday, four days straight. I just don't know what the fuck to do. I could call my dad but I don't want to burden him after the awful work days he has -- his workplace is in a nearby enough city that he can make the trip (unless he's currently doing something on the other side of Finland, which is also a possibility) but it will add four hours of driving to his day, not to mention the time he'd spend here. I don't want to ask him to do it but I don't think I really have another choice. IDK, I'm crying just thinking about this, though since last Thursday I've been crying over pretty much anything. My ankle hurts, that's enough reason for me.
Anyways. The ankle. I had to go get a pair of crutches today because walking around is so difficult right now. I can do it if I absolutely have to, but it hurts so bad and is so slow and tedious. I don't mind the crutches as such because they make the ankle hurt less, but everything else... I couldn't get a door open today when leaving class. People in the streets and the buses actually stared at me like they'd never seen a girl with crutches before. Most of the busdrivers would not lower the door-side of the vehicle for easier entrance/exit, like they should.
Those are all minor things, though; I need to hit the grocery store and I have no idea how to do it. I can't carry a shopping basket with the crutches, nor can I drag one of those floor models behind me. I might be able to use a shopping cart if I only use one crutch, but I feel awkward and embarrassed just thinking about that huge cart "filled" with the handful of things I actually need -- though witht he Easter holidays coming, I actually need a lot more stuff since everything is closed from Friday to Monday, four days straight. I just don't know what the fuck to do. I could call my dad but I don't want to burden him after the awful work days he has -- his workplace is in a nearby enough city that he can make the trip (unless he's currently doing something on the other side of Finland, which is also a possibility) but it will add four hours of driving to his day, not to mention the time he'd spend here. I don't want to ask him to do it but I don't think I really have another choice. IDK, I'm crying just thinking about this, though since last Thursday I've been crying over pretty much anything. My ankle hurts, that's enough reason for me.