Too late, or just in time?
It's summer again. It has been for the past couple of weeks. I can say that things have been crazy and totally unpredictable. I've been stuck in basically the same routine since I moved. I would go to school @ Kaneland during the week and once friday came BAM! Im out in EG until Sunday night rolls around and I have to make the 40 mile car ride back to Aurora. I would only come home because i HAD to, not because I actually wanted to. Its not that I didn't like Kaneland, it was that I didn't grow up with these people. I would come home to a place that was foreign to me, it was new and not what ive known my whole life. I came to Kaneland Junior year, people had already made incredible friendships with people and it seemed hard to really connect with people. It also didnt help that I was 25 min. away from the school and like 30 min away from ne one I did make friends with. I figured if I was going to be in the car for 30 min i might as well add 10 min and go to EG...
Last summer basically sucked. Not because of the people I was friends with because I love them all and still do, but I had that obligation to come back to Aurora for 4 days a week because I was working at Splash Country since Rainbow Falls was being rebuilt in EG. I had to find some kind of a job and hey! i like lifeguarding cause its easy and im outside all summer! Thus, this past March I made a decision...
Right before I went to AZ for SB, Bob told me that him and my mom were breaking up, therefore once again I will be moving. This time i'll hopefully be moving closer to EG again. I was told in March that we would prolly be out of Aurora in early June. HA! Yeah that hasnt happen...
Because of this news I decided that I was going to plan my summer so that i was obligated to be in EG and not Aurora. Instead of Splash again its Rainbow, instead of taking a class at Waubonsee its Harper. I was excited about this because I would be where Ive wanted to really be with the people i always wanna be with since ive moved...
Something has changed in me...I don't thnk I can take a 3rd summer where Im living out of my Conant bag. I thought I could, and i couldnt wait to be done with Kaneland because I wouldnt have to be in Aurora all the time...
In the past month or so I've built up this attachment to Aurora, actually thinking of it as "home". I've built up friendships with people from surrounding areas that I never really thought possible...
All of a sudden BOOM...I want to be in Aurora because of people like Karlee, Alyssa, Kat, Jake(and all the other Batavia boys), and Tony.
Don't get me wrong I WANT to be in EG because no one will ever top people like Katie and Tiff because they KNOW me the best and I love them with all my heart. And all the rest of my Conant and EG friends. I grew up with them and love being with them and hopefully will stay friends with at least some of them because let's be honest college is coming and ALOT is going to change.
Its hard not being at my own house all the time, in my own room, doing whatever I want. I dont want to inconvience any of my EG friends by sleeping over.
There are many reasons why I choose to go Arizona in the fall...one of them is the fact that it has been basically one of the only stable things that has been apart of my life all throughout high school. I fell in love with ASU freshman year. I told myself this is where i wanna be in 4 years. I stuck with it, and yes i visited other colleges, but the thought and wanting to go to ASU has been there all four years. It hasn't changed and it hasn't be doubted.
I just don't know how I'm going to be with staying in EG for 4-5 nights a week for the next two months. It has nothing really to do with my friends, it just the whole home situation...it is taking its toll on me...it has only taken 2 and a half years, but its here...that damn attachment.
Last summer basically sucked. Not because of the people I was friends with because I love them all and still do, but I had that obligation to come back to Aurora for 4 days a week because I was working at Splash Country since Rainbow Falls was being rebuilt in EG. I had to find some kind of a job and hey! i like lifeguarding cause its easy and im outside all summer! Thus, this past March I made a decision...
Right before I went to AZ for SB, Bob told me that him and my mom were breaking up, therefore once again I will be moving. This time i'll hopefully be moving closer to EG again. I was told in March that we would prolly be out of Aurora in early June. HA! Yeah that hasnt happen...
Because of this news I decided that I was going to plan my summer so that i was obligated to be in EG and not Aurora. Instead of Splash again its Rainbow, instead of taking a class at Waubonsee its Harper. I was excited about this because I would be where Ive wanted to really be with the people i always wanna be with since ive moved...
Something has changed in me...I don't thnk I can take a 3rd summer where Im living out of my Conant bag. I thought I could, and i couldnt wait to be done with Kaneland because I wouldnt have to be in Aurora all the time...
In the past month or so I've built up this attachment to Aurora, actually thinking of it as "home". I've built up friendships with people from surrounding areas that I never really thought possible...
All of a sudden BOOM...I want to be in Aurora because of people like Karlee, Alyssa, Kat, Jake(and all the other Batavia boys), and Tony.
Don't get me wrong I WANT to be in EG because no one will ever top people like Katie and Tiff because they KNOW me the best and I love them with all my heart. And all the rest of my Conant and EG friends. I grew up with them and love being with them and hopefully will stay friends with at least some of them because let's be honest college is coming and ALOT is going to change.
Its hard not being at my own house all the time, in my own room, doing whatever I want. I dont want to inconvience any of my EG friends by sleeping over.
There are many reasons why I choose to go Arizona in the fall...one of them is the fact that it has been basically one of the only stable things that has been apart of my life all throughout high school. I fell in love with ASU freshman year. I told myself this is where i wanna be in 4 years. I stuck with it, and yes i visited other colleges, but the thought and wanting to go to ASU has been there all four years. It hasn't changed and it hasn't be doubted.
I just don't know how I'm going to be with staying in EG for 4-5 nights a week for the next two months. It has nothing really to do with my friends, it just the whole home situation...it is taking its toll on me...it has only taken 2 and a half years, but its here...that damn attachment.