Another day!
Well, I'm feeling a little better since my last post. Some people just infuriate me so much that my little devil just takes over. I've devised a plan that would hopefully make all happy, but it's bound to make someone else mad.
Yesterday seemed to be one of the toughest days. I knew people would ask me about the game and I'd try to make it sound all well and good becuase the game wasn't the problem. My mom and my aunt called and I talked everything over with them. Cried a whole bunch more. Talked it over with Lauren and Erin. Cried some more. I believe that with all the tears I've cried the past couple of days, I could fill, if not overflow, our 13 gallon trash can. I'm doing a whole lot better today because I've come to terms with some things and am ready to see what happens when I'm not there.
I love having at least one friend (around that crowd) who loves me enough to stand up for me and make me aware of what is going on. She's my little fly on the wall. I'm backing off for a while. No more socializing or making late night trips to and from events with them. Maybe their true colors will come shining through their masks. For the one whom has my attention, well let's just say, it's all him now! Hopefully it will all work out for the best. I've come to realize I've been out of line with some things, but now I'm getting those priorities readjusted so it's all going to have to come from the opposite now. If it's God's Will, everything will work out just fine.
In an odd way, I needed something to blow up in my face becuase I was missing the little things. Now, I'm on the right track and all with shine like the stars!
Yesterday seemed to be one of the toughest days. I knew people would ask me about the game and I'd try to make it sound all well and good becuase the game wasn't the problem. My mom and my aunt called and I talked everything over with them. Cried a whole bunch more. Talked it over with Lauren and Erin. Cried some more. I believe that with all the tears I've cried the past couple of days, I could fill, if not overflow, our 13 gallon trash can. I'm doing a whole lot better today because I've come to terms with some things and am ready to see what happens when I'm not there.
I love having at least one friend (around that crowd) who loves me enough to stand up for me and make me aware of what is going on. She's my little fly on the wall. I'm backing off for a while. No more socializing or making late night trips to and from events with them. Maybe their true colors will come shining through their masks. For the one whom has my attention, well let's just say, it's all him now! Hopefully it will all work out for the best. I've come to realize I've been out of line with some things, but now I'm getting those priorities readjusted so it's all going to have to come from the opposite now. If it's God's Will, everything will work out just fine.
In an odd way, I needed something to blow up in my face becuase I was missing the little things. Now, I'm on the right track and all with shine like the stars!