Decisions...
WAHHH LAST NIGHT I HAD SUCH A HARD TIME SLEEPING!!! >.< I realized I had a talk with Krystal about love and what it meant. Now I realized that you can love someone forever just that you can see something in more than one perosn and can only be with one. Well i had a choice... To settle in with my life and just stay back and relax, watching life pass me by. Or, I could be with someone where I would push to be someone... I chose to be someone I guess... Both relationships looked quite promising but one would keep me from completing my goals, while the other pushed me to go my limit. Bleh, I am making it sound so bad not to be able to complete my goals... but the thing is she just wanted me to relax for once and take care of myself. Wells... This decision was not the only thing that made me change my mind about Jenn... I wanted to realize what it was to be with another person for I never really went with anyone else. Also with Jenn we were having some problems already so I guess I wanted to start off with a clean relationship...
Okay well yea my head is hurtin...
I feel so bad for Jenn but I had to make a choice...
Jenn's profile:
*When you're lost and the light is gone
The wind blows cold and yooh can't find your way bak home
Remember dat the darkest hour is juss before dawn
Sumtime a litto faith is all it takes*
*reaching for that one star
when you tried very hard to get it
and yooh realize
you'll neber reach it
because its too far....*
Sigh... It's okay she is strong... She can move on. I have someone by my side now who so far is pushing me to go for a better life. The only risk is that I don't know how serious she is. Even if she isn't serious though I realized something, I do love her.
(this part is for Krystal but anyone can read)
I opened the door and everyone closed it on me.
I tried my hardest to open it again.
Yet the emotions, had locked me in.
I finally opened the door with so much strength.
Lived part of my life exploring a world I missed.
Then I willingly closed the door again.
To keep everyone from changing me.
From a one who I had met.
Others came and had gotten her through the door.
At times only to the open door.
I finally managed to close that door again.
Yet, I not only tried to hold myself back.
I locked away the one with me.
So I had to make a sacrifice and open the door.
Let her go, while I find a one.
One who I can live, with the door open.
I have found that one.
Where I can live without fear of others.
The motivation and the courage to challenge.
My dreams, goals and destiny.
As my mirror image, I say...
We can make it through together.
With friendship or with love.
I Love You 4 eva Krystal. o^.^o
Okay well yea my head is hurtin...
I feel so bad for Jenn but I had to make a choice...
Jenn's profile:
*When you're lost and the light is gone
The wind blows cold and yooh can't find your way bak home
Remember dat the darkest hour is juss before dawn
Sumtime a litto faith is all it takes*
*reaching for that one star
when you tried very hard to get it
and yooh realize
you'll neber reach it
because its too far....*
Sigh... It's okay she is strong... She can move on. I have someone by my side now who so far is pushing me to go for a better life. The only risk is that I don't know how serious she is. Even if she isn't serious though I realized something, I do love her.
(this part is for Krystal but anyone can read)
I opened the door and everyone closed it on me.
I tried my hardest to open it again.
Yet the emotions, had locked me in.
I finally opened the door with so much strength.
Lived part of my life exploring a world I missed.
Then I willingly closed the door again.
To keep everyone from changing me.
From a one who I had met.
Others came and had gotten her through the door.
At times only to the open door.
I finally managed to close that door again.
Yet, I not only tried to hold myself back.
I locked away the one with me.
So I had to make a sacrifice and open the door.
Let her go, while I find a one.
One who I can live, with the door open.
I have found that one.
Where I can live without fear of others.
The motivation and the courage to challenge.
My dreams, goals and destiny.
As my mirror image, I say...
We can make it through together.
With friendship or with love.
I Love You 4 eva Krystal. o^.^o