been a long time.
barely used the internet for anything other than strictly email purposes.
and it's not even like i replaced this with my regular journal.
i just haven't been writing.
which is fucked up, cause that's what i do.
maybe that is partly why my mood/behavior has been so strange as of late.
but whatever.
i don't really have anything to say.
i mean, i could go into great detail about all the drama in my life right now.
my family going crazy in oklahoma.
my dad disowning me.
my other dad just ignoring me.
but thats bullshit.
i'm learning.
i know that whatever people are doing, however they are treating me or reacting to me, it's not me.
and they are doing what they need to do for them.
and just because they are my father or my best friend or my cousin, doesn't mean i have the right to have expectations.
i should expect nothing.
then there are no disappiontments.
and if something good happens i'll appreciate it that much more.
but i don't want to go into that....
even though i sort of already did.
but whatever.
and it's not even like i replaced this with my regular journal.
i just haven't been writing.
which is fucked up, cause that's what i do.
maybe that is partly why my mood/behavior has been so strange as of late.
but whatever.
i don't really have anything to say.
i mean, i could go into great detail about all the drama in my life right now.
my family going crazy in oklahoma.
my dad disowning me.
my other dad just ignoring me.
but thats bullshit.
i'm learning.
i know that whatever people are doing, however they are treating me or reacting to me, it's not me.
and they are doing what they need to do for them.
and just because they are my father or my best friend or my cousin, doesn't mean i have the right to have expectations.
i should expect nothing.
then there are no disappiontments.
and if something good happens i'll appreciate it that much more.
but i don't want to go into that....
even though i sort of already did.
but whatever.