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[chichihardcore]

max died
hes my brother
11 years
i talk to my mother and she is hysterical
not eating
not sleeping
im in some kind of shock
i have yet to cry
or even feel all that bad about it
and that makes me feel guilty
its hard for me to even talk to her about it
i got hammered as soon as i found out
fell aff the wagon and it hurt
i dont cry
i dont feel
i take that back
i feel dead
inside
theres nothing
negative space
im just a negative of a human being....