wierded out

[chichihardcore]

tonight was soooo wierd
first of all its friday night and look where i am
alone sittinng behind my computer listening to depressing music
but i went to the burrito place
it was so strange
some guy offered me a free haircut
and the guy who made my dinner cut a tomato in the shape of a heart and gave it to me
he said "this my heart" while patting his chest
but he put meat on it
so i had to send it back, being vegan and all
i felt like such a bitch
i wanted to cry
god i felt bad
then i saw this jason guy whom i met on the street a week or so ago
and that was strange too
god what a crazy day
does anyone even read this?
i sometimes wonder...
and whats up with people
especially the western addition people?
i dont think they have feelings
or compassion or something
like they dont even consider other people
only themselves
i want to start helping people
maybe old people
or kids
or something
i feel so much better when i help people
like this old asian woman couldnt figure out how to buy her bart ticket
so i did it for her
but i walked her through it
and i know its so small
but i felt better as a human

forgive me this sin
not hookers or heroine, gambling or gin
it sounds so ridiculous
but i just cant lick this
i need a miracle someone to help me
love myself
someone to help me
love
myself