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i need a sign tattooed on my forehead that says "PLEASE DO NOT FEED ME!!". I can feel my stomach roll on my lap hahaha.... gross....yes! Pia brought back cupcakes from Magnolia Bakery..... At first I resisted.... but of course I couldnt pass a cupcake from Magnolia's up!!! nah uh! not meeee!!! So of course I had the cupcake and then some!! i ate the icing on the box that it came in and then of course i didnt stop there..... HA! PLEEAAAASSSEEE!!! I also ate the icing from Pia's cupcake!!!!!!! im looking on my calender in which i marked the days that i dieted and ran blue and then i marked allll of my bad eating days a bright crimson red! It says that i ran and dieted for 5 days this month of February and I have 10 bad days where I ate the WORLD!!! This week needs to be the best week EVERRRR for running because i feel like i seriously gained like 10 lbs since the last day i worked out which was 2 thursdays ago!!! Like ive said a MILLION times by now, I cant stand the fact that i have gained sooooooo much weight!!! I feel soooo disgusting and undesirable.... PLEASE! like who would want this?? I wouldnt! oh man i remember the days where i was sooooooo skinny!!! I felt sooooo good and happy like 24/7!! I felt sooo light and i felt like i could do anything!! right now, i feel like all i can do is sit on this computer and eat!!! Thats sad! so, ok.... The thing that I am really good at besides art is... eating!!..... my hidden talent... all though its not really hidden if you look at my body!! hahaha I wish eating was a thing that didnt entered my mind or that wasnt my hidden talent. I wish i didnt like eating (obviously not in a sick anorexic way) !! owww thats terrible! but its true!!! Its a hobby that hurts me more than helps me!!! I would be sooooooooo happy if food did not put 3482093842384 lbs on me!! Like you would never hear me complain!! I literally think about how i need to lose weight like every 3 seconds!! seriously!! It puts soooo much stress on me!! By the way I cant BELIEVEEE we did not have Presidents day off!!! whats the deaalllllll?????