Facebook is too romantic today...
Too many engaged couples making it official to make Valentine's special and so forth.(Good for them, I guess, but all of that ritual is no guarantee.) I guess I never really expected to be among their number, except for high school, where it seems like once you get out everything you do will fall into place more easily.(still don't miss high school, except where I was "promising"--haven't felt like that in a long time.) Maybe I will go back to it someday...maybe not. I do get hit on there, but mostly by the kinds of ultra-shy young men that tend to pick a string of women that seem like low-hanging fruit and send out the same generic messages to all of us.If I could, I would say there is no real life woman whose life is such a combination of sadness and optimism that this will work.)
I don't know what I would want in a partner if I had one, really. I'm not ready to be a third with some experimental couple--that's really what I learned best from my dating profile...in theory, maybe. But I couldn't really go to my mother and be like "Dinner? No, remember, I've got my three-way with the Flenkmans today. "(Not that I'm still Diane Court and I need to tell her everything, but that still seems like going too far too fast. Maybe it wouldn't, if I'd gotten to go through stuff when I was supposed to(shrug)
Maybe my profile was too wild-child.... I went with my instincts, rather than my life experience because, like, 12 dirty weekends in a lifetime doesn't tell you anything about what fidelity means or anything like that. But I wanted to sound fun and not like"With A Little Sweet Talk I won't Report You If You Steal From Me." Which I think is what the way I really live sounds like when I look with my coldest eye(Not that that's a great feeling either.)
I don't know what I would want in a partner if I had one, really. I'm not ready to be a third with some experimental couple--that's really what I learned best from my dating profile...in theory, maybe. But I couldn't really go to my mother and be like "Dinner? No, remember, I've got my three-way with the Flenkmans today. "(Not that I'm still Diane Court and I need to tell her everything, but that still seems like going too far too fast. Maybe it wouldn't, if I'd gotten to go through stuff when I was supposed to(shrug)
Maybe my profile was too wild-child.... I went with my instincts, rather than my life experience because, like, 12 dirty weekends in a lifetime doesn't tell you anything about what fidelity means or anything like that. But I wanted to sound fun and not like"With A Little Sweet Talk I won't Report You If You Steal From Me." Which I think is what the way I really live sounds like when I look with my coldest eye(Not that that's a great feeling either.)