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My life is so not working...can't remember the last good time I really had.
got another story accepted to one of my crip magazines--it just makes me sad, how sure I used to be that one of them was My Big Break...I slaved over those first edits and I remember the editor I was working with was based in Germany or something so we had a whole day's timezones between us, It made everything take super-long, but at the time, that just seemed Serious.
The current editor has this kind of hopeless crush on this femme-fatale he thinks I am. Me. Yeah. I'm so mysterious. He doesn't flirt as much since I no longer do reading for them anymore, but that isn't why. If the stories weren't so uniformly awful(another reason why being in that mag doesn't fill me with great pride any longer) I could cope with that.
I can occasionally sit in the living room without thinking of being trapped in it.I hate how guilty my mother feels about that...she's way overcompensating.I know she's my mom but she's not really my *mommy* anymore...she can't save me from everything and the fact that she has to try still is a sick joke on all of us. I should be out failing at things for real, not being a sitting duck. I'm really not satisfied about that.
Why is there so much Sheldon/Penny fanfic? My take on Sheldon is is not very interested in the Sexing. (The actor comes off gay. I'm not sure why I think that.) I think maybe the fangirls like the thought of Penny seducing an ingenue(mangenue) or maybe they don't think Leonard is appealing...I kind of think so, not really in a groiny way, although I did have a dream where we kissed. I feel violated, slightly, on Dr. Cooper's behalf that there is so much contemplation of cute, girlish ways to get him naked.(When I don't want to switch places with him since my higher plane is all anyone likes.)
Why could I not write more today so I wouldn't find out about Sheldon/Penny fanfic? I know who my killer is, but am not getting much traction on my plan to move the story forward.
got another story accepted to one of my crip magazines--it just makes me sad, how sure I used to be that one of them was My Big Break...I slaved over those first edits and I remember the editor I was working with was based in Germany or something so we had a whole day's timezones between us, It made everything take super-long, but at the time, that just seemed Serious.
The current editor has this kind of hopeless crush on this femme-fatale he thinks I am. Me. Yeah. I'm so mysterious. He doesn't flirt as much since I no longer do reading for them anymore, but that isn't why. If the stories weren't so uniformly awful(another reason why being in that mag doesn't fill me with great pride any longer) I could cope with that.
I can occasionally sit in the living room without thinking of being trapped in it.I hate how guilty my mother feels about that...she's way overcompensating.I know she's my mom but she's not really my *mommy* anymore...she can't save me from everything and the fact that she has to try still is a sick joke on all of us. I should be out failing at things for real, not being a sitting duck. I'm really not satisfied about that.
Why is there so much Sheldon/Penny fanfic? My take on Sheldon is is not very interested in the Sexing. (The actor comes off gay. I'm not sure why I think that.) I think maybe the fangirls like the thought of Penny seducing an ingenue(mangenue) or maybe they don't think Leonard is appealing...I kind of think so, not really in a groiny way, although I did have a dream where we kissed. I feel violated, slightly, on Dr. Cooper's behalf that there is so much contemplation of cute, girlish ways to get him naked.(When I don't want to switch places with him since my higher plane is all anyone likes.)
Why could I not write more today so I wouldn't find out about Sheldon/Penny fanfic? I know who my killer is, but am not getting much traction on my plan to move the story forward.