its been over a month
wow its been over a month since ive updated that i have abandoned my lj. well... its true. whats the point in livejournal... when you can just post a blog. but whatever... im at school so cant do it. if you have read my last few blogs then you would know about my little situation. i just feel so confused. i have this excited, happy, confused, scared feeling all mixing around in me. i really really like this person........and dont know what to do about it. im too much of a chicken to tell him how i feel. i just cant, i think i just need more time to see where time takes me. Hopefully it will lead me straight into his arms (although i have been there before) but anyways.... lindsay seems to think he really likes me... she "just sees it so clearly" in her head she says. plus when our group of people are hanging out... if i leave on a little adventure... like to the dollar store... and am like does anyone want to come... he ALWAYS comes. I just wish i knew how he felt or what he thought though. i have known him for a while... so its not like its some guy i just met... why cant i tell him how i feel? im so freakin lost... and i use to be the girl with the balls. i use to be the girl who could do anything. now i am just a big fat chicken.