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Okay.
Im so confused.
im like...ready to go back to school...but then...again...im really not ready at all. Im kinda upset that ive been rushing summer away. I love Miami and i know that this year is going to be great...but im starting to get a little bit nervous about it.
I miss my friends. but i know that as soon as i get back to school...i will miss my friends from home...so much. and that never ends for 9 months. I guess i am just blessed to have people to miss so much, ya know? even though its really hard and sad, i cant imagine not having good friends to miss. or not having good friends that i know will always be there for me...even when i sometimes treat them pretty crappy.
im scared about living in the sorority corridor. i am just not a constant partier. that is just not me. i like just hanging out with my friends...playing games, watching movies, late night ice cream dates...thats my idea of a good time. i had lunch with my roommate today (who is not in Phi Mu) and she actually feels the same way i do...and that was so comforting. SO comforting. i am just worried that the girls will think that i dont want to hang out with them...or i dont like going out with them or spending time with them. and that isnt the case at all...but if being in a sorority means compromising who i am...its just not meant for me. and i know that its not like that...two of my good friends in Phi Mu do not drink AT ALL and they still love being apart of it. im just nervous...and i doubt things when i get nervous.
august 19th is just RUSHING here. rush.ing. it seems like i should still have at least a month of summer. ahhhhh. crazy.
its just the whole...hating change thing...it gets in my way a whole lot. i wish i could get the eff over that.
Im so confused.
im like...ready to go back to school...but then...again...im really not ready at all. Im kinda upset that ive been rushing summer away. I love Miami and i know that this year is going to be great...but im starting to get a little bit nervous about it.
I miss my friends. but i know that as soon as i get back to school...i will miss my friends from home...so much. and that never ends for 9 months. I guess i am just blessed to have people to miss so much, ya know? even though its really hard and sad, i cant imagine not having good friends to miss. or not having good friends that i know will always be there for me...even when i sometimes treat them pretty crappy.
im scared about living in the sorority corridor. i am just not a constant partier. that is just not me. i like just hanging out with my friends...playing games, watching movies, late night ice cream dates...thats my idea of a good time. i had lunch with my roommate today (who is not in Phi Mu) and she actually feels the same way i do...and that was so comforting. SO comforting. i am just worried that the girls will think that i dont want to hang out with them...or i dont like going out with them or spending time with them. and that isnt the case at all...but if being in a sorority means compromising who i am...its just not meant for me. and i know that its not like that...two of my good friends in Phi Mu do not drink AT ALL and they still love being apart of it. im just nervous...and i doubt things when i get nervous.
august 19th is just RUSHING here. rush.ing. it seems like i should still have at least a month of summer. ahhhhh. crazy.
its just the whole...hating change thing...it gets in my way a whole lot. i wish i could get the eff over that.