On a lighter note *snickers*
It seems oddly perverse to me, that while in high school I tried so hard to make my body do what I want and wouldn't, now I don't care and it's doing what I wanted it to without my asking. I mean in high school, I tried so hard not to care about body image and buy into all that societal bullshit, but inevitably I did. How can you avoid it? So I did care and tried so hard to make my body do what I wanted it to and it would just never oblige. Then I get to college, start by putting on 20 pounds on top of the 20 pounds I always struggled with in high school. And then a weird thing happened. I got a girlfriend who effectively bullied me into positive body image and I made peace with my body and stopped caring about those stupid extra pounds, and what happens? It all starts to melt away. I've dropped my freshman 20 and begun to make serious in-roads on that 20 that drove me crazy in high school and I'm not trying. I probably eat less healthfully than I ever did in high school. I also probably worked out a lot more in high school. But now I'm actually beginning to get tired of being told I'm losing weight by everyone, ALL THE TIME. It's like the first thing people who don't see me on a daily basis have to say to me. Sometimes it's the first thing that people who *do* see my everyday say. I mean it's not like it's a mean thing or a bad thing, it's just that I'm getting to this point of "yes, I know I am, I can't control it, in fact I've given up doing so. I don't have an eating disorder so don't stress about it." Frankly, if my appetite wants to be non-existant, that's fine with me. I'll keep eating (or atleast trying) out of sense of obligation, but really I've decided that I will give my body what food and exercize fits into my life and it can do whatever the hell it wants to do with. Anyway...I'm not really going anywhere with this, just kind of thinking outloud. So.........yais.