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*sigh* I'm a nerd. I've decided that I'm just not ready to date...or as Marie so wisely put it, I haven't found the right guy that I want to date. But now comes the ever so fun part of breaking the news to the poor guy that I just want to be friends. Which is so true cuz I really do want to continue to be friends with him cuz he's really cool! *sigh* Man, I suck. My mom just told me that I need to stay "real" and not put on a "face". Man oh man. Hopefully he'll take it alright.
Alright. I really like being single. It's very nice. I don't have to worry about guys or anything like that. But then again I do because I always whine about how I want a bf and all. Gah, I'm stupid! Maybe I just really suck at relationships...
So my mom and I had a very "real" talk tonight when I got home. She told me how Micheal prolly got the signal that it wasn't going to work out. Yeah, I walked like a mile away from him and said bye from the door while he was still in the street...was that bad? Yeah, prolly. See! I told ya that I'm no good at this sorta stuff. *sigh* Anywho, she proceeded to tell me how sometimes I come of as if I'm on a pedistal and everyone else is "the mud on my tires". Wow, that really sucked but I'm guessing it's something I need to hear. I really don't mean to be that way...I don't even realize it most of the times. But now I'm gonna really start looking at how I respond to people and keeping a leash on my facial expressions. So that was very interesting. My mom and I aren't really that.....communicative about how we feel. It's something that we don't ever ever ever talk about. Even though it hurt to hear that...I'm really glad she said it cuz now I feel a bit closer to my mom. I'm surprised I didn't get all angry! Wooohooo! Anger is departing! Wooooooot!
I have so much hmwk due tomorrow and I don't even care.....I could care less as a matter of fact. That's pretty bad. I think I do care....deep down somewhere, but right now I really don't want to do anything. I still need to read 3 chapters of The Great Gatsby by tomorrow...yeah, not gonna happen! Need to write my speech...for speech. And I need to do math. Take a million tests...see, this is why I hate missing school. The make up work sucks like no other.
"Sarcasm...the lowest form of intelligence and yet so amusing." -away message
Alright. I really like being single. It's very nice. I don't have to worry about guys or anything like that. But then again I do because I always whine about how I want a bf and all. Gah, I'm stupid! Maybe I just really suck at relationships...
So my mom and I had a very "real" talk tonight when I got home. She told me how Micheal prolly got the signal that it wasn't going to work out. Yeah, I walked like a mile away from him and said bye from the door while he was still in the street...was that bad? Yeah, prolly. See! I told ya that I'm no good at this sorta stuff. *sigh* Anywho, she proceeded to tell me how sometimes I come of as if I'm on a pedistal and everyone else is "the mud on my tires". Wow, that really sucked but I'm guessing it's something I need to hear. I really don't mean to be that way...I don't even realize it most of the times. But now I'm gonna really start looking at how I respond to people and keeping a leash on my facial expressions. So that was very interesting. My mom and I aren't really that.....communicative about how we feel. It's something that we don't ever ever ever talk about. Even though it hurt to hear that...I'm really glad she said it cuz now I feel a bit closer to my mom. I'm surprised I didn't get all angry! Wooohooo! Anger is departing! Wooooooot!
I have so much hmwk due tomorrow and I don't even care.....I could care less as a matter of fact. That's pretty bad. I think I do care....deep down somewhere, but right now I really don't want to do anything. I still need to read 3 chapters of The Great Gatsby by tomorrow...yeah, not gonna happen! Need to write my speech...for speech. And I need to do math. Take a million tests...see, this is why I hate missing school. The make up work sucks like no other.
"Sarcasm...the lowest form of intelligence and yet so amusing." -away message