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I had a very nice day. The weather warmed up and the kids got outside. I helped Maxwell ride his bike (without training wheels!) and he did it! Riley got on her tricycle for the first time too. I threw the football with Maxwell, played hopscotch with Riley and had an all around nice day. I went to Target to pick up a few last minute things for my trip and there had to be about five brand new babies there along with a slew of pregnant women. It's just something I'm going to have to get used to and deal with, but it did seem a bit cruel...I mean--how many brand new babies are going to Target on a given day? When I got home, there was a lovely package from a lovely LJ friend, which meant the world to me. I know that my due date is going to pass unnoticed by my family and "real life" friends, but I know that all of you are thinking of me and Daniel, and really....that's all I need. I'm so grateful for all of your thoughts and prayers. If you weren't in my life, I don't know how I'd be handling things.
Also--interestingly, or coincidentally, randomly, or whatever...I saw a new fanpage on Facebook called, "If I get a million fans my sister is going to name her baby Megatron." Maxwell always wanted to call Daniel "Megatron", and I've posted that name a few times on FB. Kind of cute.
I got a very sweet email from Jamie today. She thanked me for the letter and said that everything in it was things she had felt and she was glad to have somebody to go through this with. She also said that somebody told her that the only thing her babies knew was love and I thought that was a beautiful way to think of things. One way of getting through my loss was thinking "Maybe I was supposed to go through this to help somebody else" and when Jamie didn't contact me, it just felt so empty. What was all that for if I can't at least be a source of support for somebody else? The email was a big relief and I was so glad to get it.
I just so enjoyed being a mom today. I wish Daniel was here to be a part of it, but I know that somehow he was.
Also--interestingly, or coincidentally, randomly, or whatever...I saw a new fanpage on Facebook called, "If I get a million fans my sister is going to name her baby Megatron." Maxwell always wanted to call Daniel "Megatron", and I've posted that name a few times on FB. Kind of cute.
I got a very sweet email from Jamie today. She thanked me for the letter and said that everything in it was things she had felt and she was glad to have somebody to go through this with. She also said that somebody told her that the only thing her babies knew was love and I thought that was a beautiful way to think of things. One way of getting through my loss was thinking "Maybe I was supposed to go through this to help somebody else" and when Jamie didn't contact me, it just felt so empty. What was all that for if I can't at least be a source of support for somebody else? The email was a big relief and I was so glad to get it.
I just so enjoyed being a mom today. I wish Daniel was here to be a part of it, but I know that somehow he was.